every minute every second, someone is dying.
every minute every second, we are dying.

so why are we being hard on our lifes?

search within yourselves and find an satisfying answer.
i hope it helps to spurt you on.
PEACE ^_^V

i'm lost...again! argh, you know how it feels to be lost? and have no sense of direction? you have no idea where to go and you don't know what lies ahead. its scary and insecure. i'm kinda like this now. kinda...lost hope. where have my spirit go?

i have a crazy mission to go through SHINEE thread from the top. which means i'm scanning through 1000 over pages. good luck! :D

i banged my head against the wall today. it was an accident! my sis called me hopeless since i could even bang my house's wall. i lived here since 4. oh well...i'm getting the DUBU CONDITION.

please my kuku-ness? too many embarrassing moments...sighhh

hello~!

hi :)

my mood now is neither here nor tthere. its not this yet not that.
you know? its complicated. wonder why its like this. hmm

any way, just settled with m about g markets stuffs. will be finalize the stuffs we're getting and send the email to ekorea for order placement. Finally putting words into action to get my round hat. whoosh~

i dreamt that i dropped 5 of my teeth.
i woke up and i had to check if my teeth are secured with my gums.
dreams felt real enough for me to be this retard.
sigh

i will be up early tomorrow to offer prayers for my paternal grandparents.
its been long since i offered my prayers to them.
i missed you guys :(
it always felt odd to see the once there scene gone, replaced with another.
and there's always a sting whenever aunt eyes teared up when you guys are mentioned.
and seriously one more thing, i seriously do really dislike your forth son. hate to admit. my uncle. the worst adult ever seen.

argh. g market offers so many awesome stuffs! i could stay at home and do all my shopping :)
all those nice designs...hats, shoes, clothes...oh my mama thank god for g market!

i'm finishing breaking dawn! whoosh~then off to finish travelor's wife then THE LOVELY BONES! yesh, i bought the novel already! :D oh oh i'm gonna save up for polaroid cam! WAIT FOR ME :D

<3

ahhh wanted to blog a meaningful post but when i see the big blank space, my motivation gone.

well, be back again to upload the pics then XD

got back my results not too long ago.
wasn't as well as i expected.
was so upset that i cried. this is not what i wanted. really.
and after all the efforts i have put in, the results is so.
i might as well go kill myself.

any way i still got into the specialization i wanted, HR
one good news at least zzzz
guess about 50% of my year 1 classmates will be in my new class this year too.
argh, this is a happy and sad thing.
zzz
and i see 2 smart ones in my class. see how i feel inferior and dumb in front of them. zzzz
and my family wont stop rubbing salt into my wound of getting a lousy grade. argh fcuk.

ok getting irritated as i go down. bleah.

now if i could share with you all of my stories..

i realise there are so many good female singers!
like amy pearson, IU, olivia ong...wow they have such soothing voice! i wish i could be like one of them :'(
sadly my voice is nowhere near their level..(or maybe it is? heh ;P)
its time to go noraebang~i wanna sing sing sing!
sing my heart out! sing sing sing the words out that my heart felt so much!
my talents are too wasted to be spent at home HAHAHA

alright, its time to spend some quality time with good sooting music with a book in hand! :)
i'm gonna finish breaking dawn first then the travelor's wife and finally the lovely bones! :)

see ya!

throat hurts like fcuk.
hurts when i swallow something.
somewhere at the end of my nose tunnel, something's stuck.
worst, gastric is back.
suffering is back.

argh, and i'm going out tmr. see how i die. zz
tmr will be a great day out with leng and janel.
go to sleep evon wong.

damn those typos

i'm getting emo already :(
i'm slowly liking the idea of staying at home and slack. That's bad!
but on the flip side, i could save money! :DD and get all comfy! hoho

today's a wonderful day i'm telling you :)
the weather arent that hot or that cold. its at a wonderful temperature a tad cooling ;)
now if only singapore maintain this weather for the rest of my life...

you know what? i wanna try smokey eyes. like key's just to try something new.
alright i'm really out of mind already. argh what's is wrong with me!

 today was mightly great :) i'm happily contented :D

went to Singapore's Korea Plaza to playhang out:)
main part is i get to try on REAL hanbok. yay!:)
many thanks to my poly clique who brought me there and went in there with me when i want to :)

i love hanbok! was not embarrassed when the staff were staring at us because i had them with me:)
i even secretly brought home a korean tea bag hehe :P
next time i shall bring Happy Bang and my family there:)
with my polaroid camera :)

speaking of which, i had a few of the to-buy list items striked off:)
got breaking dawn book at a much cheaper price at san bookstore (phew!)
found out that buying the lovely bones novel at popular is super worth it (only 13 bucks!)
also realised i made a wise decision to buy the time travelor's wife novel at HMV which only caused me 10 bucks. (way cheaper than any other places!)
lastly, the polaroid camera i saw Key using in Hello Baby Ep 7 part 5 is exactly the same as ger's.
which makes it way affordable (119 bucks)! YAY!
so i'm thinking should i get blue or pink? :|
i wanna get the camera real soon! take a very nice family protrait :) Happy bang too :)

went to Books Actually too :)
its a very nice, old school, vintage bookstore and others :) very very nice. i really like the stuffs there. Books, notebooks, cards blah blah very very nice :) OH! and paper bag they use is super to my liking! (good thing i said yes to having a bag heh :P)
bought 2 wooden milk bottle for decorations :) planning to have one for key and one for me :) but i'm thinking does key like milk? HAHA i know taemin like XD
OH! i also have this cow, cow and milk sticker for onew. But i'm thinking, should i give it to him or leave it for me? hmmm :/

okok pictures time! just had to post these. everywhere hahaha!

"what happened?"
"who are you talking about?"
"are you gonna be alright?"
"i hope you're better now"
"thank god you're managing well"

these are what went through my mind while registering your words.
but it will never be heard or seen by you.
and you probably will never know. 
cause its slightly impossible to say it to you.
and how i saw your words....can't let you know.

just be happy? will you?
and slowly, my mind will drift off.
just be happy while i'm letting go the grip.

i'm sooooo bored....
people...ask me out leh! :(
i've been staying at home rotting and rotting for almost a week already! :(
bring me out to exercise i also happy :( RAHHHH

i know i have gotten over you but sometimes its still hard to face you.
so if i could, i would avoid any interaction with you.
i'm a coward who lack of strength. sorry.

created a tumblr account but dunno how to work it so am going to give up.
i'm an IT noob. zzzz

아이고~
i'm still awake :D early in the morning 4.44am~ :P
let's just pray i won't sleep till 5-6 in the evening :X

i heard a nice song today- 4Men's baby baby
sounds pretty good enough :) its my blog song so do enjoy it whilst reading my blog :)

and i have yet decide what color to buy for my round hat!
Purple? Grey? or a darker Grey?
i even made little notes and make a random pick.
tried 2 rounds with one result on grey and purple each.
i will make the final decision tmr! its time to go bathe and go to bed! :)

1. Round hat
2. The lovely bones novel
3. Breaking dawn novel
4. Polaroid camera 
5. dye hair-ash purple 

i'm gonna accomplish the above list asap! :)
meanwhile i shall spend time reading The time traveler's wife novel :)

you know, you almost got me.
with all your lies and all your sweet nothings, you nearly got me.
you were going to be there the next time.
i'm awake now. you won't get me and you never will.

my blog look so dull and moody :(
i'm getting upset by it too :(
sigh...how far would you go to attain happiness? :(
upset again :(
why do people lie?
ah any way i live in my own lie too so what's the point....

please let this holiday end now :(