hoho i'm so bored that i'm here to blog.
seriously i'm blogging EVERYDAY!
GAHHHH

all this free time should be used to study macro ica this thurs...
oh well, after this post i'm gonna study=)

i feel so sian!
oh oh oh hahaha!
my sis was whispering to my mum about something and i just so happen to pass by and i looked straight to my sis and HAHAHA okok i pretend i dunno anything k. HAHAH but i do know they are doing something. LOL so cute hahaha

sigh too bad my dad arent going to join us this wed =(
he's gonna join my grandma and go malaysia.
sighhhh

okok i'm blogging nonsensical stuffs. =P

ahhhhh
my laptop's mouse is getting faulty =_=
now i have to buy new ear piece and mouse.
when will my curse on IT stuffs get over?

any way, effws ica 1 tmr! O.O
wish me luck yo! =]
i'm so free eh? able to blog everyday HAHA
but i did study! =D

and i saw a disgusting piece of news!
this crazy fan girl of taekyeon wrote him a bloody letter!
bloody as in it's written with her period blood! AND a sprinkle of public hair =.=
oh god, WTH?!
that's so gross!!!
$&*#&%*&#*
i gonna puke out my food..GAH

sigh, i feel so sad.
my ideas for my birthday celebration with my family was rejected, rejected and REJECTED.
damn
for every idea i suggested, it got overruled with my sisters "brilliant" idea.
they think it as a OUTING but not CELEBRATION.
and i left my special day for them....right.
zzzzz
so freaking sad.

i just lost the excitement. zzzz
well at least there's school on that day...
it wouldn't be THAT bad right?
come on....dun do this to me. i arent THAT bad right?

celebration with HAPPY BANG tmr=)
please lord, it wont be THAT bad right...
sigh

i see you, i wished for you.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
freaking sian.
what is there for me to anticipate?

现身天使 (Angel of Emergence)
爱情已经出现了，你心里有数。
有打算和对方继续发展吗？不管怎么样， 你一定能好好再爱过。
容许自己沈殿在爱情里。 让爱情的滋味填满你的人生。
不要顾虑那么多，跟着感觉走。
不要在乎恋情的长久，勇敢地去爱吧！

access will be the cause of the F for my ica tmr.
GOOD LUCK.

advance celebration with HAPPY BANG this friday!=)
can't wait to see them=)
although i saw jp today XD
i din see her so she was standing in front of me and went : hello?
HAHAHA oops sorry dear :x
didn't mean it XD

special day gonna be spent with lots of family loves!=)
its also option day.
i hope special day brings special luck, allowing me to get into the course i wan =)
i'm choosing CRM, HRM or SUPPLY CHAIN.
no retail. can't talk and convince people to buy stuffs. HAHAH

2 icas next week =(
good luck manz!
sigh.

the night when we went to celebrate Jeannie's birthday, there was this scene.
this scene so familiar.
i seen it before.
the ambiance, the place, the angle and the people.
yes, i saw it, in my dreams.
i think it was some time ago. Perhaps months to 1-2 years ago?
what's the magic between dreams and reality?
the connection that dream comes true.
then i hope, that dream, me and my special one, will come true soon.
=)

cause you are my sun, the moon.
-In my room, Shinee

so tired.
here to blog a bit before i go to bathe and to my lovely bed.
i'm gonna appreciate my bed more and more HAHAHA

came back from Jeannette's birthday celebration some time ago=)
not bad=)
HAHAHA
elaborate on it soon yah?=)

night peeps=)

suddenly i feel so blessed=)
its so heart warming to know you have friends and family surrounding you =D
to have friends who laugh with you, listen and share with your troubles.
to have friends that make tutorials not so boring after all.
i'm really glad to be surrounded with my friends=D
they are those wonderful daily gifts god given to me=D
my life, is not that dull after all!:D

and my family?:D
my cute cute mama, my always kena bullied by me papa=D
my two sometimes serious sometimes fun yet always my loving sisters=D
my two aunties who i know cared for me (us) =D
oh manz! my life is wonderful! =D

there are also people here and there...
appearing and disappearing in my life..
i meet them, i lose them.
but its ok, at least we met at our life's cross junction =D

today, i'm so grateful and so enlightened=D
my family's love for me is so great that i wanna share it with the world! HAHAHA
(please dun hate me on this><)

the reason i'm this happy is because i have freed myself and him.
I know i will be wasting his time so i shall not make him waste more time on me when i know i wont be able to be with him. you get the idea?
when one girl and one boy get into a relationship, its when they both truly love each other=D
this is what i look forward to=D
sorry boy><

okok! gonna do tutorials and projects! and STUDY!
manz....where's my motivation?
I NEED TO DO SHOPPING ASAP.
WARDROBE CRISIS!!! S.O.S
HAHAHAHA

edit: my sis and i did a recording for our house phone. HAHAHA its retard i tell you! XD try calling my house phone to hear it XD

PS: this post has been altered=D
too bad if you din get to see the before-altered post=P
you can come find me and ask HAHAHAHA

cheeky me :D

hello loves :D

a disturbing headache.
that's when you slept too much
sending your brain to rest for long hours.
><

yesterday's basketball session with HAPPY BANG was canceled due to the rain. SIGH
i was looking forward to it...
its our first attempt to making basketball session a weekly activity! =(
but oh well, there is always next week=)
please dun rain! i need my exercise you know! XD

everyone! i need to inform you my new name! =)
instead of EVON, i am now YOVONNE.
and its not even the usual Evonne or Yvonne =.=
hahaha! the proud creator of my new name is KAVITHA=)
LOL, i'm not suan-ing her k...but i am shocked XD
its only 4 letters! and you dun pronounce yovonne as Evon leh...LOLZ
sorry kavi =x

and and and i have a another new name! its called KAVONGER.
lol, its a combination of kavitha, Geraldine and evon=)
Kavonger sounds like some brand for climbing equipment XD

what else is there for me to blog here...hmmm
oh! i changed my brand for marketing ICA1 to TOYOTA!=)
sorry frolick><><
i promise to patronize you more ok? XD

have to complete tutorials, study and finish projects.
i wanna go out><
where's my date? ><

WOW its a chilly night. Has the weather turned chilly in the night or is it me?
i'm feeling seriously cold...maybe i'm catching a cold...hmmmm

any way, my macro lecturer showed us this video called the paradox of our time.
we gain and we lose at the same time.
its a cool video but i din have ample time to digest and think about it =[

and and and oli was toking about some prata that is like paper ball...so she was describing the goodness then she said when you tear it, stream will come out cos its that hot. LOL
then we were toking about ris low...
then we linked to this:
"ris low should endorse this prata"
" yeah, then she would say: this prata boomz cause its that hot"
okok the point is, the its that hot
XD

doing my marketing ICA1 now...
its a individual written assignment...i'm doing on frolick and i'm starting to regret it><
i love frolick i love frolick and so i can ace my ica1 on it =]

bball this friday!=]

little surprises
life's surprises
life filled with surprises

oh yeah! i finished my new moon book! and now started on eclipse! and i'll approach the climax of the whole twilight saga, BREAKING DAWN!=] some find this series stupid, but i really like it alot so do bear with my craziness over it=]

i'm slowly losing myself.
dun tell me that i'm not because who else knows myself best other than myself?
i need someone to catch me and pull me back.
i know i have changed.
not for the better and i know it damn well.
i see my old self leaving me.
that old self that i'm more comfortable with....
ending this journey is not the solution to go back to where i came from.
i know.

late for school =.=
that's first for this semester...
my mum mistakenly woke me up at a deadly time of 6.15am.
i even woke up and bathed.
while i was bathing, i realize i'm not suppose to wake up till 8.15am! =O
i even looked up the bathroom's clock and thought:
wow, its 6.45-ish. bathed again..(i bathed quite late last night XD) EH?! i thought lesson starts at 10.10am?
=.=
i was wrongly awaken (LOL!)
in the end i slept through 8.15am till 10am =.=
i skipped stats lecture...sigh
how lousy! stupid phone's alarm clock!

you know how deeply asleep humans can be that no sound can ever enter their world?
maybe even without being asleep, humans still cant hear some sounds.
is it a choice to hear or turn a deaf ear to these sounds?

there is this world.
the world that one cant see but could be seen by others.
no no no, maybe its the world that one failed to see because its bounded to one world only?
in this earth, there are more than one world.
the world that everyone looked so happy
the world that everyone looked sad
the world that everyone fought through each day to survive
so many worlds, living side by side.

goodbye love=]

hello=D
i'm clean and nice now=) haha what a statement XDDD
played basketball with happy bang, justin and his friend today=D
EXERCISED, YO! heh heh =P but i'm super tried and every part of me ache now=(
even my heart, ached.

just one day, i dunno how many times i fell asleep><
i'm just tired and i just slept slept slept when i have the free time =[ turning into a pig, SIGH
any way, LOL got people say I cute wor! XDDD why am i happy over this? LOL
they think too highly of me liao>< i'm so ordinary that cindy didn't realise i was in class for the whole day lo. I blend in with the people =(
but any way, that's a nice thing to hear to brighten my day heh heh =P

still cant get over some events. It just occupies my mind so naturally.

any way, i just wanted to say this:
dun treat relationship so lightly. if you dun mean it, dun say it.

bleahhhh!=x

i cant find the courage.

i'm sleepy and tired now.
its a long day today and the future ahead.
i hope i will be able to pull through all life's obstacles and make each stumble a lesson to learn and strengthen myself.

i really wanna sleep soon but i have yet complete the tutorials needed for tmr's lessons. Good luck to me =[ today, wasn't a great day after all><

you haven't tried and you have given up.
disappointed and upset, but what more can i say?
a brand new start, it means a second chance.
then you can use this chance to get things back on track.
once oversleeping is fine but twice and now? its not a excuse for you to skip lessons after lessons.
first time oversleeping then you gotta try not to do it a second time. but you aren't trying to wake up on time.
even if this is not the road you desired and wanted but since you have already been placed here, could you at least try to fit in? but from what i see, you're not even trying.
but any way you have chose the way you want and i cant do anything to it right?
guess i'm that petty and selfish friend after all.

so tired.
so much blows.
so much to handle.
so much to fake.
so much of so much.

will you light up my candle of hope?
for love, friendship, kinship, peace and compassion.
To: my sweetie
i love you, still.

i'm stunned and shocked and nothing can possibly explain the dilemma i'm in now.

TVXQ, to me, they dun just mean idols.
TVXQ, to me, this name is not just a band name.
TVXQ, to me, it meant so much more.
TVXQ, they are more than my idols and they meant everything to me.

I love them, not just as a fan girl but also a student who respect her teacher.
The years i followed them, has brought me a lot more than other idols i followed.
They taught me a lot more even though they may not know it.
And as i love them so much, i want to protect them.
From anything that may threaten them in every possible way.
I love them, i really do.

I love TVXQ as a whole. I want them to be together as long as possible.
Oh lord, please please please guide TVXQ in all ways possible. Bless them with your kind guidance and bring them out of the misery they may face. Give them strength they need. With your healing hands, take away their unhappiness and heal the wound they may suffer. Oh lord, i put them in your hands. Oh lord please help them. Amen.

TVXQ, please...
dun break my heart any further.
I'm already a living dead and for the longest time ever, i relied on you.
You cant destroyed my world.
you just cant.
please, lord see them through.
but if its unavoidable, i guess i could face the trouble fate.

edit: I'm totally lost and confused. I have no idea who to trust. Whose mouth speaks the truth...who's lying? Who's right? Who's wrong? Am i dumb? No, i'm so stupid. i'm fooled. this world is so scary.
either one of them IS LYING. BIG FAT LIAR.
i dunno and i just want to run away.
dig a hole, hide my head, block my ears and let myself drown in the darkness.
Junsu, tell me, if i can trust you?