its "no fan & no air-con" day!!
no wind no coolness. the school is like an oven, the students are baked under the hot roof.
and when i got home i wondered: why does the wind cool us down? is like why wind have this cooling thing? mmmm

today chemistry test.
at least i was prepared to do the test. so...it should be alright for me. i pray i would be able to do well this time. sighs >.<

english mid year oral.
i got miss intan. i really dunno her name so i called her miss bintan. ORIGINALLY. hahah vivien was laughing at me for that. dumb dumb di di di di
and so i went for the oral test.
when i first saw the picture, i was like : oh gosh what the hell.
but i was able to come up with ideas.

the actual oral. okay so some of the ideas i thought of didn't came out of my mouth. i just said with the flow. and ending every section or part with a big fucking YAR

for the conversation
miss intan asked: what is the thing you and your friends do which is exciting?
i was like what? then i ask her: can you repeat again? she laughed and was like what the...
i answered her again: basketball..
and why? the embarrassing moments^^ so me to say that LMAO

ok that should be all.

just had ice cream^^ yummy^^ mama mia!! bambaya!!!
so hot so hot...i wan air con to sleep tonight but papa won't allow.

SHIT MAN

that small measuring cylinder cost $2.75.
lesson learnt: never underestimate the value of even a small cylinder.

that that that cylinder is so expensive and why why just one hit it broke. HOLY
tmr is the chemistry test and english mid year oral exam. BLESS ME
now mid night 12.13 i am still sitting in front of the computer typing these chunk of craps.

oh lord bless me with wisdom and courage tmr^^

every little steps bring you to a bigger world.
everything will be fine.
i will be fine too
i will overcome every stone and swim to the shore.

YEAH^^

1 day ago...
the breaking of heart pieces. the falling of tear pearls.
i saw my heart slashed to thousand pieces
i saw a group of being walking pass me.

have you wondered why am i so gloomy...that's only because...

to the someone who caused it
i wasn't there for you.
my presence wasn't there for granted.
i do not have the responsibility to be your clown to make your day.
i enjoy making peoples day but please i am not FREE.

i am not your spare tyre friend. you dun just take it when you are in need and throw it when you dun want it.
did i mention how i hated you always comparing. WHAT ARE FRIENDS? may i ask your definition?

i am a bloody ass here because who i think was family members are not what they are. was it just a front they had or was it just their true self? my tears....are long gone when my heart was so bruised. i realised i couldn't trust people any more. family members...are they really them or just ordinary people who walked passed my life?

i have enough of this. bring me through.
my heart is not bleeding. my wound are found but blood are not found. so am i still alive or just a living dead?

define my purpose of living or i just lie in my earth coffin and rot off and decompose myself into the cruelty soil of humane world.

i need time to calm myself. can't go back to what it use to be. i noe i said i enjoy making people happy but i am a selfish girl who would at least wish they appreciate what i have done for them. really.

and i want true and real who treat me wholeheartedly. no more faking just truth would that do?

to end off this post...



ys: mmm i was playing with my phone and this is me caught in action unexpectedly...so i produced this odd expression. the paparazzi evon took this pic and post it here. EVON WONG it is my privacy you know!

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