although i am not crying...but YAH KIM JUNSU tell me is that true?? you babo!!! YAH i am so hurt!! YAH you noe i still love you right? i got scolded by my sis for going TOO crazy over you and now what is this!! YAH you treat me like that!!! wah........damn hurt
junsu.....i am so hurt....is it true or not......
you noe i am so worried when they said you hurt your leg? so tell me what is this?
although my love gone a bit dead due to family matters but i still love you!! so tell me what is this?
YAH KIM JUNSU BETTER TELL ME IT IS NOT TRUE!!
maybe junsu went to his father pizza shop? wait wait i dunno la!!! too confused to make any decision. JUNSU YOU MESSED UP MY LIFE!!
ok i ahev damn big probblem to embed video again...
♥ injuries...
in the mist of studing for my chinese o level exam...
I AM WORRIED TO DEATH BECOS OF MY DONG BANG BOYS!!! *roaring in progress*
ah!!!! first yoonho, then the other rest. are you tring to make fun of me?? i already scolded yoonho for dancing during the concert and now....sighs... october is not the month to hold any concert...
joongie fell off into a hole. hell!!!! joongie!!! my dear joongie!!! how are you?? that must have hurt alot!!! hell!!! fans said that he was like forcing a smile when he got up and that goes to show it hurt!!! and painful!!! my heart~~~is so pain seeing and knowing he fell...damn it.
MY LOVE junsu hurt his leg. damn. he had to dance yoonho's part during the three concert. and of cos his leg will confirm hurt!! wah my heart breaks into many many pieces!! can you imagine how hurt i was when i heard that?? i was like f*** ah!!!! junsu my dear how are you??
changminnie suffered gastric problems due to the lack of rest and also perhaps stress? he wasn't getting enough rest!!! three day concert then fly back to japan!!! he even visited the hospital!!! ok....how are you my changmin?? oh my god and he is not eating as much as before!!! that look really bad to me cos changmin use to eat alot!!! and now? i heard he lost 7-8 kg!!!
yoochunnie he suffered sorethroat of cos like duh three day de concert 26 27 28.
ok now i am gonna scold SM.
BLOODY SM can you for once care for my dong bang boys!! after knowing they are alll suffering can't you let them rest!! right after the three concert you let them fly back to japan?? you shit!!! are you trying to torture my poor boys!!! how could you!!! yah! they are all human beings!! YAH WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?? LSM!!! you ass!!!
ROARRRRRRR!~~~
i want my boys to be healthy. do you noe how tired they are?? when i looked at their airport pics i was so hurt....they look super tired...my boys.....get well soon.
sighs...from now on i pray for my boys......
TVXQ FIGHTING AND GET WELL SOON. I MISS YOUR TRUE SMILES. I LOVE YOU ALL. I WILL SUPPORT YOU FOREVER AND EVER^^
♥ family??
Monday, October 29, 2007
it is nothing...
i dun feel it at all. sorry but everything to me seems so....dead giving me those talk, giving me those scolding...you think i cared? giving me those false heart to heart talk....you liar. calling me stupid you "father" to think i have such parents.
so childish yet you can call it funny and entertaining. sorry i dun find it funny.go find your other two smart daughters.
sorry i am just stupid i dun need you to say it loud and clear i got it right clear in me. i always wanted to tell my "mum" something about my "dad" something i always have been suffering in silence.
those "mum" and "dad" seems so unreal. where goes the loving mum and caring dad?
memories are so beautiful and reality sux to the core.
i wanted to run away...imagine evon without the wong.
i wanted to kill myself but once again my aunt reminded me : bu yao zuo sha shi. how can i bear to leave the two aunts who brought me up? i haven't pay the debts to them i own them too much.
most of all i can't bear leaving tvxq....how can i...
but do you noe the pain behind those smile. i dunno which smiles are real....
can you believe that i dun smile or laugh at home? can you believe i hardly talked to my family? can you believe i hardly spend time with them? can you believe this is what i call family life?
i miss you po. can you give me a hug in my dreams. min can you come to me...
i am a stupid and silly gal who still thinks that everything about junsu and i would happen.
i should just learn how to go with no fears and just boldness.
smile when you see me perhaps that will make my day.
i hate what i use to call family. i miss my family not "family"
i miss my sis not "sis" i miss my parents not " parents"
i miss my home not "home"
what's wrong with blogger or rather my com...
ok i gonna flood myself with water----bathing...
♥
Friday, October 26, 2007
jung yoonho do you still want your life??
you this baka!! you have already injured yourself and now you still went up to dance!! are you trying to break my heart as much as possible. do you noe how worried i was just knowing that you are hurt? and now you actually force yourself to dance your solo and o jung bun hap. you you you!! why must you do this!! why must you force yourself!! if you dun to torture yourself please dun torture us! why didn't you listen to the doctor? you noe you are injured!!! what's wrong with you ROARRRR!!
this is the second time i am scolding you le ah JUNG YOONHO!!
you better not do the something tmr and on sunday if not....
♥
ooooooo i changed the language to korean....wahahaha so cool^^
♥ junsu lame dance~~
junsu your brain which nerves go haywire?? come come i help you fix...
but you are so cute!!! AH *FAINTS*
♥ JUNG YOONHO BABO!~!
ok this is the officially the first time i am going to scold TVXQ other than junsu.... (i scold junsu too wahahaha at some point of time)
JUNG YOONHO you this babo. this idiot who thinks about not upsetting and disappointing the fans. how could you!!! hello i mean you are injured how could you risk yourself to go perform with injures. tell me what exactly you were thinking? DUN tell me about the fans and not upsetting them...yar di yah di. i am so not gonna accepting that. hello you mean the fans are inconsiderate? you mean the fans wanna see yoonho injured(already) and still forcing himself up the stage to perform? and not just one performance is one concert which makes it a two hour performance thing? and not only for one days is three days!! Jung Yoonho what are you thinking!! I BET CASSIOPEIAS WOULD RATHER YOU GO REST and CANCEL THE CONCERT. and not like what you are doing! what are you doing!!! you are the biggest babo baka in the world!!! ROARRRRR!!!! yoonho why are you like this. do you noe how worried i was when they said you are injured on the 25? do you noe my heart is beating so fast that i can't even breathe properly. yoonho why?? why can't you think for yourself for once? dun say about being self centered stuffs. yoonho why?? although i can roughly understand why you are doing this but i still feel so angry!!! ROARRRR yoonho!!!
sorry i noe i should be praying for yoonho but his action is so....so.....so....bu li zhi. i just wanna scold him. jaejoong de other time already like that now i just dun wannna another one to be like this. whether is it junsu yoochun changmin or yoonho or jaejoong, i dun want it to be any one of them. i dun wanna history to repeat itself again. yoonho....concert is going to start at about 30 mins later. what's the point of me saying scolding?
ok.....shall pray for yoonho may the concert be a successful one!! and yoonho will be extra careful for his already injuries...
come on let's pray for yoonho this silliest babo on this world....
dear lord, please protect TVXQ from any injuries accident or anything. lord you have to protect these boys.they are my love^^ and also pay special attention to this silly babo yoonho. this guy who still gonna perform when his injuries relapsed....look after him lord. may he not suffer any pains. and lord please dun let them have any after effects!! lord look after them may their concerts be a successful one....lord no matter what in future please look after TVXQ lord please always be with them. lord guide them through their life paths. lord let them be happy^^ let them enjoy happiness. even though i can't have them i pray that one day they will find their true love^^ pray that the true love is me!!! haha ok...lord now yoonho can only participate in the slow songs section and talk section. lord let the fans understand. lord let yoonho to rest and heal him. let him not suffer any pain during this recovering period. lord look after your child yoonho. thank you lord.
AMEN.
no matter what....yoonho i still love you. recover soon yah? yoonho dear saranghae!!! dun be sorry we all noe what happened......jia you k?
today is the 3/7 week after my po's death. went to offer prayers to po....and today is the weirdest day of all.
first i saw rat in the morning then monkeys??? i mean real monkeys at mandai and squirrel....=_=
it is some what a family outing to me. i am happy today. po are you?? po....i miss you. i hope you got our prayers...
ok now i dunno what to blog le... i am scared anxious. FUCK shit watever...
sighs....i feel like dying...
i wondering how is my report book gonna like.
shit...
♥ 안녕!!
yo guys i am back after such a long time again^^ these few days i am just being lazy to blog~~muahahaha
any way tmr is the last day of school for only lower sec students....and damn i am the upper sec student so i have to continue going to school. =_="
oh and tmr is a very important day. i am getting back my report book. i am scared. PO YOU HAVE TO PROTECT AND BLESS ME!!! haiz..............
let me promote let me promote if not i shall commit suicide...
♥ 6 days
Sunday, October 21, 2007
6 days have passed since i last updated^^
ok...so now let's see what happen in these 6 days? let's just say i can't really rmb them...oh is just that i choose not to recall and telling them out....not that they are bad and all^^
erm...sat i went to hand yunho papers^^ on the way there i saw many tvxq fans^^ and they can recognise that i am also tvxq fan too^^ and guess what i met lots of japanese and korean^^ yay...
today lots of tvxq video for me haha...also super junior^^
just watched heechul and hankyung YSMM...funny^^ heechul and hankyung make a good couple as close friends not yaoi. i kinda like heechul for his funny and witty character^^
so now sense great danger. i need to insert more junsu love into me!!
ok i am so gonna make myself to stay in love with junsu...
i realise what kind of guys i will attracted to. junsu is because he is funny^^ heechul attracts me because he is funny!!
but nowadays junsu too mature..sighs....where is his wittyness? ok but i still love him as ever!!
JUNSU SARANGAHAE!!
poor kangin!! damn that babo for pulling off his chair. he was calming the fans....and that babo actually went to pull off his chair~~~FUCK YOU! how can you trick kangin. do you noe he will get hurt. OMG. you piece of shit...how can you do this? chicken!! my dear kangin fall off and landed on his poor butt. he even needs the support of the members to go back or move away. damn it. although i am not really into kangin but i still feel sorry....
SIGHS KANGIN GET WELL SOON K? I MISS YOU!!
♥ new me??
Monday, October 15, 2007
yo guys!!! annyeong!!!
evon is now trying to cheer up and carry on.
von wants to tell everyone von has tried to be happy recently but nothing can cheers me on cos...i miss my grandma. if you have read the earlier posts you will noe what happened. but you noe what. today i sort out all my thoughts. i was thinking how can i always be like this..i mean i stay emo all the time will never bring back my grandma. like what anonymous said: my po never left me she didn'tpassed away she lives in my heart. let's pray i never forget her till i die cos you guys noe i suffer serious memory loss. ^^ po will you be happy to see the new me?
von wants to thanks her friends!!! YT PL HM JP YS HK GE~~who cheered me on when i am super duper sad. special thanks to my jie and da ge i hope they know that i am toking about them^^ that they still cared alot about me. THANK YOU SO MUCH MY FRIENDS!! SARANG HAEYO~~
to my dearest friends: i noe i suffer mood swings recently and i noe you guys find me irritating annoying. i am so sorry!! and i shalln't use my po to be excuses of all this. guys sorry for letting you guys so annoyed. sorry von was angry with herself with this too. also thanks for all those concern you gave me!! it gave me more energy than ever. thank you. friends are like this bringing each one on^^ haha^^ thanks you guys for all those laughter i need them alot^^ i miss my smile and laughter too. i miss the comments you all gave me when i started laughing out of the blue or laugh no stop. heh i miss them alot. thank you for not giving me up when i am so hopeless. thank you for not leaving me alone. thank you for surrounding me. thank you. you guys are like my sun (also my junsu and tvxq!! how can i ever forget them huh?) THANK YOU SO MUCH. I LOVE YOU GUYS~~~ah!! friends forever~~ right??
haha wanted to thank them but couldn't cos you noe i am shy=_= and i think they will like what's wrong with you man...haha^^
so...von will be maemuki^^
next time please label me maemuki gal k? i would be happy to hear that^^ do you guys noe i always like ppl to tell me i am a cheerful gal. you noe how happy i will be?? ^-^
any way i will not be sad any more. what the future gives me i just have to accept and take it huh? and i noe my po will be there to guide me through the life journey. i am not alone with my friends family and tvxq i can break through any wall. maybe i will be having different emotions...haha
friends lets have a yakusoku that we will be friends forever nia? CHINGU YEONGWOHI!!
ok i got an enlightment through my nightmare....god...that nightmare scary!!
♥ humans...
Sunday, October 14, 2007
i have always wondered why my grandmother would like to be a bird in her next life. she said that because it is hard to be human. reasons to be a bird is that it can enjoy freedom, flying so freely in the sky. now i understand why my grandmother would think that way.
humans are living being which are filled with much more stuffs? than any other living things. they are filled with brains which are clever enough to come up with motives regardless of good or bad. they are filled with double face standards. am i too naive to understand the world of reality? does people have to stab people in the back? what i mean is must people talk bad about this person in the back and not tell him in the face? isn't it better to tell the person in the face get the problem solve once and for all.
why humans can bond together this moment and break up the next moment? why humans can get together to fight one common enemy and break up after completing the mission? why can't they stay together, bonded?
am i too innocent to understand all this?
i dun understand why humans can be like this. the world, yeah, not that good as i think huh? perhaps i have been a well frog trapped in and away from the real world. maybe i have been living off too good that i didn't realize what is going on.
po is that what you wanna let me noe? allowing me to see your point of view? po is this what you saw that's why you wanted to be a bird? if it is, i understood it perfectly already. (no offence to my po it is in a really polite manner) po, i now wish to be like you, being a bird, flying freely in the sky. maybe one day i will be flying with you in the sky? po will you wait for me for that day to arrive?
PO i miss you. do you noe how hurt i was to see how my relatives fall out? how scared i was when i saw that? i always that it was a loving and peaceful family but it all turned out to be false. po, you must be sad to see that too.
po let's pray that everything will be alright, k? po i pray you get to see everything. but i dun wish again.... po if you see everything wouldn't it break your heart? ah no no! maybe seeing the good ones? leaving the bad ones to me. leave some good ones to me too, please.
po....how are you? as always i love you.
po remember all those talking i gave you during the wake and all those? remember them ok?
i will carry on the promise i gave you.
po take care on the way...sorry po that i wouldn't be able to take care of you any more. take care of yourself k? you always be in my heart.
I LOVE YOU PO!! wherever i am, i never forget how good you are, how great you are, how strong you are, how loving you are, how much you loved me.
this post is no way pointing any fingers to any of my friends if you are wondering about that.
♥ my beloved grandma-letter to you
Thursday, October 11, 2007
po i miss you. i didn't expect you to leave me like this. po i am sorry. for the things i done before you left me. po will you forgive me. po i am selfish i didn't want you to go. po i wanted you stay beside me but i choose to be happy for you now are freed from suffering. 10 years, is enough. 10 years no more suffering. po will you be there for me? po can i cry out to you now everytime? po are you living in happiness now? po how are you in heaven? po i am sorry for being such a timid girl but forgive for i am afraid of all those ghost things. SORRY PO!!! po i got so much to say. po thank you for coming back and visiting us. po now you can leave in peace. we are all fine as you see. but we all cried. po you noe how much we love you. po i can't adapt to the days i can't see you FOREVER. po but i will get used, i noe i can't always look back.
most importantly, I LOVE YOU.
note before the post "limits"
♥ limits
ok let's say i am tired of just keeping quiet sometimes there is a limit. come on man not like i am a saint or whatever i do have weakness and i get really irritated. stop pushing it. you are getting on my nerves.
you noe i have been controlling myself from saying anything to harm our friendship. to say the truth i am starting to think how childish can you be. i do realize i can be childish too but at important moments could you not just think of yourself? can you FOR ONCE (ok *peep* did go for once..) just join us? (a big hint to who i am toking about)
HELL you noe i am really getting damn pissed off.
stop pushing it like what i said.
mum nagging so here i end my crapping too. WARNING TO ALL: dun push it i can really get fierce and scary dun try me.
♥ brothers~~
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
i got two brothers!!
one is justin!! i just acknowledge him about 10 mins ago!! lala!! yay!! he say he will treat me well de!! i got a doting bro!!! yay!! i got evidence!! the SMS-es!! MUAH HAHAHA~~~
and eugenice!! da ge!!
and eugenice told me this the government said stop at 2. and just right i got two. ok...i stop here lo.
which means JUNSU shall be my husband muahahaha and have jaejoong yoochun changmin and yoonho to be my lover or boyfriend let them choose but junsu got no choice he must be my husband!! puahhahaha~~~ okay dun bash me cassiopeias!! i bet your also think this way!! *runs*
i also have no choice de!! the government also say stop at two!! *untrue singapore history facts here. "stop at two" policy applies to that children thing when singapore experiences baby bloom after world war two.*
and just right my sis came back after typing the world war two thing...=_=
today's eugenice's birthday!! GAL SAENGILCHUKAHAMNIDA!! at least she knew my intention on the 12.00 midnight call. hahaha^^ we went to celebrate with her!!
by BOWLING i mean that's what she wants^^ and my bro and 158 went. my bro can bowl nia!! but dunno why at the end he kinda....off...haha after bowling he was like sms-ing me : i bowl very funny right, i am caring... ok you are caring^^ and somehow which leads me to acknowledge him as my bro^^
puahahaha!! dun be jealous^^ you must pity me for not having junsu by my side.(sorry)
and shit tmr getting results.
i going to sleep now and forget everything. my mum wouldn't question me. puaha.
haha and my bro is so caring^^ yay!! ge ge good luck for your o's ah!!
♥ that video
i watched that video again....no doubt i cried. you noe what i was thinking while watching? OS: how can you do this to me,junsu? how could you? i look at junsu, crying. my heart breaks into thousand pieces. junsu i never seen you crying but now how could you!
ah did i write this kind of post before got feeling i wrote it before but now as i watched that again the thoughts of it came back again.
but look at junsu crying...i just cried along too. i never seen junsu to be like this. HE CRIED. i cried. somehow junsu have this ability to make me follow him. he cry i cry. he laugh i laugh. junsu.... someone tell me how to put the video ah!!
♥ lalala~~
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
lalala~~ lalala~~
ytd went to watch movie~~THE NANNY DIARIES. omg i tell you that show is hilarious but dunno why the other say the movie is not nice...i find it funny ah...any one wanna watch that movie? i can watch with you~~=)
any way tmr is eugenice's birthday!! girl ah stay happy it's your birthday=) today went with ys to buy her birthday and what we got? was people's attitude.WTF can you imagine? how unlucky we were? every stall we went the women gave us attitude like hell. bitch.haiz...what's wrong with the people. any way shall not tok about it spoilt the day.
any way we got the "birthday cake" for eugenice. but got all the anger.haiz...poor us.
any way went to play basketball today and it was hilarious. mabel uh....you are so funny. and jt got leg cramps. mmmm
any way ys just reminded me tmr getting results....NO NO!! me dun wan...haiz...scared to hell...
any way his post shall be short cos dunno what to write liao...
and and changmin cut his hair!!! like finally~~ and on the oct5 & 6 TVXQ will be having concert in taiwan~~
my poor 5 guys so tired!! just saw their airport pics they look so tired!! omg i see already heart pain!!!!!!! my poor 5 guys!!! omo... poor guys....even how tired you guys are rmb that i will be there for you!!
I LOVE YOU FOREVER TVXQ!!
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