dun talk about my room.
just look at my cui hair.
i'm gonna die in embarrassment and total disgust.

my hair...tell me how to survive?
key is coming this friday night. and i'm gonna see him with this cui hair.
someone grant me a miracle then somehow, my hair will look good.

seriously. just kill me now.

transformation of room-----> completed
a whole new layout.
i'm so proud of myself :D

will take pics of room! :DDD

gastric problems has once again visited me.
sigh.

knew it. since i was having irregular meals for the past 2 days.
sigh.

projects are killing me in a way.
but i'm glad its all gonna end soon.
i'm actually looking forward to exams than projects. its really weird.

on a lighter note, SHINee is coming! :D
that's something really really good and something to rejoice over! yesh!
i cant believe i'm actually gonna see key for real! OMG yell!!!!!!!
KEY! :P
ps: condolences to key and family. i'm so sorry to know that you lost your grandparents. i know how you are feeling now. must be terrible. but i do hope you find strength and be strong. think it as a new journey not an end for them. just like what i did when i lost my grandparents. thank them for their love. accompany them for their last journey. work hard for them to see. at the end of your journey, you will see them once again.
be strong my love.
RIP, Key's grandparents.

back to reality.

Projects are the murderers.

i'm so tired and sleepy.
sigh, for the past 2 weeks, i have to go to school early in the morning and only be back in the afternoon.
so tired.
each returning bus journey, i will definitely fall asleep.
sigh.

life aren't good.
who say life's good?
can we give some things in life a second chance? so that i can redo everything and avoid those mistakes.
but life dun have the restart button.

i'm already drained and lost.
i'll never come back.
my soul has already lost its core.
until someone finds it back.

picked up my broken pieces and have moved on.
knowing its back to the same old shape but the wounds will never be gone.
its there, still there.
while it still beats, it still hurts.

maybe as each day pass, the pain will fade away.
today, 3 quarter have gone.

i wish i could be stronger.
i wish i can be independent.
but i'm not.

please dun leave me alone.
i dun wanna be alone.
i wan to lean on you.
please dun go.
please.

Look at me,
You may think you see who I really am,
But you'll never know me.

Everyday, it's as if I play a part.

Now I see,
If I wear a mask, I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.

Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight back at me.
When will my reflection show who I am inside?

I am now in a world where I have to hide my heart and what I believe in.

But somehow, I will show the world what's inside my heart and be loved for who I am.
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?

Must I pretend that I'm someone else for all time.
When will my reflection show, who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly
Why must we all conceal what we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide

My heart will still go on.

someone....save my nose :( i rub my nose until my lips also hurt. (HAHA dun ask me why too lazy to explain :P)
i have no idea why i have a runny nose. why? i even wore my purple hoodie for the whole day leh. like that also tio...? how many tissues have i used? my nose so poor thing! i bet my nose is super red now.

despite my runny nose, i'm still having the fan blowing directly at me. HEH HEH XP
*chants* fall sick fall sick fall sick *chants*

i had alot of thinking the later of today. Its a reflective event and a hurtful event.
i told my mum about it and she told me to learn from it and get over it.
i told her i know, but still, i do feel upset.
that's only one event i told her about.

너 왜그루세요?
친구 안돼요?
가숨이 아파요 :'(

feel my sian-ness!

purple sneakers~i'm coming to get you!:D soon XD

not good at handling goodbyes.
hate to say goodbyes.
goodbyes meant heartaches of missing someone. 

even if goodbyes, two will still get to meet at the other end right?

wow...i'm starting to be impressed with how SM is able to match different people talented with great voices together to match a perfect harmony. actually i should have know that SM ability when i was so indulge in TVXQ's harmony XD

today, i'm super impressed with SHINee's harmony. My jaw dropped almost the whole time while listening to their live performance of ROMANTIC. wow, i never knew they could sing live as well as the CD! wow! they earned my respect:) super impressed you know! i was falling asleep while watching thier ROMANTIC live performance...amazing. HAHA

i'm sleepy. but i'm still up cos i insist in exploring SHINee live performance of slow songs.
did you know their IN THE ROOM live performance were great too? :)
i think i have to spend days playing shinee and dong bang's songs on repeat:) ahhh good music are worth to listen more often ;)

starting to appreciate Jonghyun and key's harmony;)
actually, starting to get REAL impressed (big time) with jonghyun's vocal and singing skills ;)
and key! he's almighty, everything about him is great and awesome! :) super biased, too bad he's my fav :P

alright! i'm gonna spam more shinee music :) i'm gonna see SHINEE for real soon! YAY!
feel my happiness <3

Bought this badge from POA ;) there's another badge from POA that is really nice too! gonna get it too :D
OH! i bought a purple hoodie too! nice~!

also i finally got to try Tom N Toms :D its actually a korean version of starbucks XD i think it's a pretty famous coffee cafe in korea :) mm actually it's not too bad :) I love both TOM N TOMS & STARBUCKS <3

Hello people:D
i'm here to blog again! hoho :D

attended open house event today, was suppose to be a student helper but i ended up touring my own school XD
awesome right! :P
i even took picture with reborn! done by cosplay. HOOHOO
that guy is soooo skinny! i thought he is a girl =.= GAHHH can't differentiate guys and girls already. eyes failing.
i wish i was as pretty as those pretty boys! too bad i'm not :(

oh wells...
i'm super bad. i've been naughty.
i'm gonna reflect on my wrong doings.
i'm sorry :(
all for the wrong things i've done, forgive me :(
sorry :(
*not to anyone in particular, to my own conscience and dear lord ;(*

saw some really good quotes in reader digest :) made sense and set me thinking...
shall leave another one here:)

Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.
                                                            -Judy Garland-

she's got a point :) goes down to being yourself :)
does fit into my blog ;)
Be yourself people! :) *note to self XD*
hope you guys find it useful yeah?

realize, when he arent happy, i dun feel good too.
realize, even without him, i could feel at ease, just as long as he's happy.
i'm happy, when you are :)
stickman 2 ;)

up and down of emotions today.
the back of the shoulders HURT ;( somewhere swollen or something ;( PAIN LEH. zzzz

update again with pictures! ;D
xiao long bao <3

and do you know why?
because....now my laptop's V came off too =.=
COME ON!
i wasn't that as violent as the time when T came out! zzzz
it's all because of macro!
was flipping through macro's lecture notes and that must have put out my V =.=
(gotta blame macro!)
zzzz macro, thanks so much ah.

still, its kinda funny how this happens. LOL
it only happens to me :(
WHY? lol lol lol
maybe laptop and me are not meant to be. HAHAHA
this year i wish to have a new laptop for my birthday. haha!

okok back to macro project. ZZZZZ