i'm stunned and shocked and nothing can possibly explain the dilemma i'm in now.

TVXQ, to me, they dun just mean idols.
TVXQ, to me, this name is not just a band name.
TVXQ, to me, it meant so much more.
TVXQ, they are more than my idols and they meant everything to me.

I love them, not just as a fan girl but also a student who respect her teacher.
The years i followed them, has brought me a lot more than other idols i followed.
They taught me a lot more even though they may not know it.
And as i love them so much, i want to protect them.
From anything that may threaten them in every possible way.
I love them, i really do.

I love TVXQ as a whole. I want them to be together as long as possible.
Oh lord, please please please guide TVXQ in all ways possible. Bless them with your kind guidance and bring them out of the misery they may face. Give them strength they need. With your healing hands, take away their unhappiness and heal the wound they may suffer. Oh lord, i put them in your hands. Oh lord please help them. Amen.

TVXQ, please...
dun break my heart any further.
I'm already a living dead and for the longest time ever, i relied on you.
You cant destroyed my world.
you just cant.
please, lord see them through.
but if its unavoidable, i guess i could face the trouble fate.

edit: I'm totally lost and confused. I have no idea who to trust. Whose mouth speaks the truth...who's lying? Who's right? Who's wrong? Am i dumb? No, i'm so stupid. i'm fooled. this world is so scary.
either one of them IS LYING. BIG FAT LIAR.
i dunno and i just want to run away.
dig a hole, hide my head, block my ears and let myself drown in the darkness.
Junsu, tell me, if i can trust you?