first day of school...i dun like it at all. I'm thinking, how am i gonna survive through this semester when i'm already so depressed on the very first day...
it's not exactly good or is it bad in a way..
i feel very very very pathetic today.
I gotta stay strong and learn to be independent. But being alone is something i always dreaded.
school's gonna be tough for me since there will be times i'm gonna be alone.

you gotta pull me back.
its too hard to put on a genuine smile when you cant put real feelings into it.
its too hard to be strong if you arent strong in the first place.

dear lord, will you give me some guidance and grant me strength?
sighs.....i wish i dun have to act happy when i am sad.
i wish i show what my heart feels.
or best of all, let me disappear so that no one can see me=D

poof away and bring my troubles and woes along.