Why is it so hard to keep this feeling down and if possible, burn it away?
Why does it die out and come back again and again?
Why can't i, just why can't i after so many times of attempts still can't get rid of this?
Its tearing me apart from who i use to be.
Its torturing me everyday, every hour, every minute and seconds as i come to think of it.
It kills, it hurts and its horrible.
Why? Why? Why?
Why can't i be so 'gentleman' enough to release it so freely?
Why? Why? Why?
Why am i still clinging to this feeling, even the bits of it?
As angry and frustrated i feel, i can't stop thinking, wishing and hoping.
Why? Why? Why?
Am i still so stupid and dumb?
WHY? WHY? WHY?

stupid fool, can't you let it go once and for all?
IDIOTIC HUMAN.
said so many times that you have let it go and blah blah blah...in the end? you're back to square 1. Found yourself being stupid dumb and ridiculous. Wanna knock some senses out of myself, but never really succeed.

BIG BIG FOOL EVER

Any way today had spastics outing and Mel, Claire, Daniel, JJ and myself=)
Although its a pity that Lenny couldn't join us for the spastics outing , we still had a great time together, cycling and laughing=D It must have been a long time since i laughed so hard. Today, laughed till stomach really hurt=D next time we shall go ice skating or wake boarding?=DD Actually today i wanted to trick everyone to go kallang and ice skate...but oh well, the plan was...haiz.

why must you torture my heart and my soul?
Showing me heaven then pull me back to hell.
life's roller coaster journey, flying to the sky and diving down to hell.