Entries of life ★

written on the 25th

i know i shouldn't be here, blogging but...i just want to slack around for just a little bit before i start mugging for o levels.

well, today i got angry about myself because i couldn't figure out what in exact do i want.
what, in the end, do i want to achieve.
what do i really want to own after all this?
i couldn't figure out what i really desire.
i start to get really fed up with myself and then i start to kick myself inside.
i laid down on the cold white tiles, looked up the white plain ceiling above.

well, nothing went through my mind, i just looked at it blankly like it was suppose to give me some kind of signal.
then i that was when i realised, my eyes were tearing.
i was so lost, so lost that i didn't even know what i was doing this whole time.
i started questioning myself, what have you done in your whole entire life?

that was when i found out, my life is such a mess.
maybe i should really tidy my life and start everything anew while i still can.

you dun have to know me,

just let me stay by your side.

i just want to look at your smile, just this whole time.

you dun have to look at me,

just let me stay by your side.

i just want to feel your happiness, just this whole time.

you are my song that i sing everyday.

you are the melody that rhymes through my mind every night

you are the soundtrack i hum every now and then.

you are the memory i recall, you are....

my kim junsu.