what is love?
what in exact, would you define love?
i realise, i don't understand what love really is.
well, at least to me, love is shared between soul mates, where you will spend the rest of your life with each other.
love, the bond that keep us tied together.
love love love
I'm coming to think that my words of "love" are coming to be less valuable:(
this is bad.
i have this belief that "i love you" shouldn't be said that often.
it is a very....well, priceless and well treasured phrase.
i think it is just holy.
"i love you" should just be said to the one you truly love, instead of just saying it to any body any one.
so, next time i should take into consideration when i am tempted to say these 3 holy words to any one.
junsu, i like you.
i shall, from now on, save that "i love you" to my future husband.
i sound silly, but i'm trying to leave something significant for my husband.
HAHAHAHAHAHA
oh well, i was bored and janel told me to come up with poems.
I CAN'T!
see what happens if i lay my hands on literature?
it gets long and naggy,
damn,
instead of poem, i created prose? wait or was it story?
oh well,
I WANT NOBODY NOBODY BUT YOU.
SAYING "I LOVE YOU"
YOU'RE MY SONG.
lalala
the rhythm running through my mind.
the music i'm humming
the soundtrack playing on my mp3
the melody you and i think of.
the notes you and i came up with.
♥ LOVE
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
♥ While looking at the.....after glow
Saturday, September 27, 2008
i feel really pathetic now.
listening to utada hikaru's flavour of life, and then realise whatever i went through for the past 16 years, was all contribution to the different flavours of life. it was a great song.
be it sweet like candy, where i experience love, friendship, kinship and many many more.
my first ever official crush not someone, not idol, not someone random.
my first real crush on a idol, junsu.
and finally the love i felt from my friends and family.
be it bitter like medicine, where i experience those hard times.
the times where i scored badly
the times we fought and quarrelled
the times when we fell out
the times i realise JUNSU was flying out of my hand
the times where ppl backstabbed, betrayed, badmouthed me.
and the others.
be it spicy? huh?
this one...i really dunno how to write. whats so spicy in our life? LMAO
ah~
the time when i finally get to see TVXQ, my life will be damn spicy,
NOT BAD EH?
be it sour....
errrrr
what is then sour?
my life is, infact, ok.
i dun worry about money because what my parents earns each month is enough for the living for the 5 mouths of my family.
i have two great sisters.
i have two great aunts
i have the best grandparents.
what more can i ask?
*coughs*junsuasmyhusband*coughs*
so....this post was meant to be emotional and i was attempting to type it as sad as possible but, well, i can't stop myself from being this silly. hahaha
i came across the translation of the song "while looking at the.....after glow" (song from TVXQ's 4th album [MIROTIC])
read it and again, i teared. i counted, this time i had 2 big drops of tears and two small pearls of tear.
then at the end, i saw the comment of a soomier...
i think junsu is trying to convey a message to the girl in his mind to wait for him.
thunderstorm, the thunder strikes, the rain starts to pour.
each raindrop, hit heavily on my heart.
reality came knocking on my door.
then, the thought that junsu have someone in his mind made me cried even more.
junsu, had someone he fancied, and that her is not me.
he loved her and is asking her to wait for him......?
he expressed his love to her already?? and now that is, she knows, he asked her to wait for him?
the questions just went running through my mind.
each thought was such a pain.
it was silly of me.
maybe i should have never step into the world of fangirlism.
but....because i have already been here, i can't just step out....
junsu, i'm sorry.
really, i have been so silly.
sorry.
sorry.
listening to utada hikaru's flavour of life, and then realise whatever i went through for the past 16 years, was all contribution to the different flavours of life. it was a great song.
be it sweet like candy, where i experience love, friendship, kinship and many many more.
my first ever official crush not someone, not idol, not someone random.
my first real crush on a idol, junsu.
and finally the love i felt from my friends and family.
be it bitter like medicine, where i experience those hard times.
the times where i scored badly
the times we fought and quarrelled
the times when we fell out
the times i realise JUNSU was flying out of my hand
the times where ppl backstabbed, betrayed, badmouthed me.
and the others.
be it spicy? huh?
this one...i really dunno how to write. whats so spicy in our life? LMAO
ah~
the time when i finally get to see TVXQ, my life will be damn spicy,
NOT BAD EH?
be it sour....
errrrr
what is then sour?
my life is, infact, ok.
i dun worry about money because what my parents earns each month is enough for the living for the 5 mouths of my family.
i have two great sisters.
i have two great aunts
i have the best grandparents.
what more can i ask?
*coughs*junsuasmyhusband*coughs*
so....this post was meant to be emotional and i was attempting to type it as sad as possible but, well, i can't stop myself from being this silly. hahaha
i came across the translation of the song "while looking at the.....after glow" (song from TVXQ's 4th album [MIROTIC])
read it and again, i teared. i counted, this time i had 2 big drops of tears and two small pearls of tear.
then at the end, i saw the comment of a soomier...
i think junsu is trying to convey a message to the girl in his mind to wait for him.
thunderstorm, the thunder strikes, the rain starts to pour.
each raindrop, hit heavily on my heart.
reality came knocking on my door.
then, the thought that junsu have someone in his mind made me cried even more.
junsu, had someone he fancied, and that her is not me.
he loved her and is asking her to wait for him......?
he expressed his love to her already?? and now that is, she knows, he asked her to wait for him?
the questions just went running through my mind.
each thought was such a pain.
it was silly of me.
maybe i should have never step into the world of fangirlism.
but....because i have already been here, i can't just step out....
junsu, i'm sorry.
really, i have been so silly.
sorry.
sorry.
♥
Thursday, September 25, 2008
written on the 25th
i know i shouldn't be here, blogging but...i just want to slack around for just a little bit before i start mugging for o levels.
well, today i got angry about myself because i couldn't figure out what in exact do i want.
what, in the end, do i want to achieve.
what do i really want to own after all this?
i couldn't figure out what i really desire.
i start to get really fed up with myself and then i start to kick myself inside.
i laid down on the cold white tiles, looked up the white plain ceiling above.
well, nothing went through my mind, i just looked at it blankly like it was suppose to give me some kind of signal.
then i that was when i realised, my eyes were tearing.
i was so lost, so lost that i didn't even know what i was doing this whole time.
i started questioning myself, what have you done in your whole entire life?
that was when i found out, my life is such a mess.
maybe i should really tidy my life and start everything anew while i still can.
you dun have to know me,
just let me stay by your side.
i just want to look at your smile, just this whole time.
you dun have to look at me,
just let me stay by your side.
i just want to feel your happiness, just this whole time.
you are my song that i sing everyday.
you are the melody that rhymes through my mind every night
you are the soundtrack i hum every now and then.
you are the memory i recall, you are....
my kim junsu.
i know i shouldn't be here, blogging but...i just want to slack around for just a little bit before i start mugging for o levels.
well, today i got angry about myself because i couldn't figure out what in exact do i want.
what, in the end, do i want to achieve.
what do i really want to own after all this?
i couldn't figure out what i really desire.
i start to get really fed up with myself and then i start to kick myself inside.
i laid down on the cold white tiles, looked up the white plain ceiling above.
well, nothing went through my mind, i just looked at it blankly like it was suppose to give me some kind of signal.
then i that was when i realised, my eyes were tearing.
i was so lost, so lost that i didn't even know what i was doing this whole time.
i started questioning myself, what have you done in your whole entire life?
that was when i found out, my life is such a mess.
maybe i should really tidy my life and start everything anew while i still can.
you dun have to know me,
just let me stay by your side.
i just want to look at your smile, just this whole time.
you dun have to look at me,
just let me stay by your side.
i just want to feel your happiness, just this whole time.
you are my song that i sing everyday.
you are the melody that rhymes through my mind every night
you are the soundtrack i hum every now and then.
you are the memory i recall, you are....
my kim junsu.
♥ the new car
Sunday, September 21, 2008
gosh....
i suffered heart attacks for the last two days.
WHY?
my dad.
my dad.
well not that he doesn't have license.
no no no i really mean he HAVE one.
did i mention he didn't drive for the last 28 years?
i was worried to death.
>.<
but i must say, it was comfy in the car! hahaha i love my car~ so small>.<
introducing my limegreen little car!
and what is it like inside the car?
my daddy, the driver, of the car. the driver, driving me to heart attacks.
and pic spam of my cousin min le! AGAIN!
i like these pic out of the set.
1 random pic.
how my house looks like in the evening.
i was bored.
♥ prom!
Sunday, September 14, 2008
"My prom style is glamorous!"
prom night is getting me excited!!!
i can't wait to laid my hands on my prom dress, and dress myself up pretty for prom^^
i searched a bit for prom gowns and these are the ones i fancy.
i dun think i can wear tube dresses though....i need more fillings in my mountains. LOL
oh well, i'm still searching for the perfect gown and the perfect guy in my life.HA
it seems we're getting further apart than we used to be.
what have got between you and me?
was it me or was it you?
was it god or was it puck's knavery?
i'm clueless to the wall between
it is hard to see the heart within
i really need to try how to resolve this...
but it only seems how stupid i can be.
is it really like what you said
i hope...i really do. our happy bang will stay together.
sometimes i wonder, why humans can be so complicated.
why it get so hard to understand what one's think?
what is in their mind?
what is running through in their mind?
i dun understand at all.
maybe that is why i wanted to learn psychology so much.
to know what others are thinking.
to learn to interact with others better.
prom night is getting me excited!!!
i can't wait to laid my hands on my prom dress, and dress myself up pretty for prom^^
i searched a bit for prom gowns and these are the ones i fancy.
i dun think i can wear tube dresses though....i need more fillings in my mountains. LOL
oh well, i'm still searching for the perfect gown and the perfect guy in my life.HA
it seems we're getting further apart than we used to be.
what have got between you and me?
was it me or was it you?
was it god or was it puck's knavery?
i'm clueless to the wall between
it is hard to see the heart within
i really need to try how to resolve this...
but it only seems how stupid i can be.
is it really like what you said
any way we will still strain away after we take our leave to enter the new
phrase of school
i hope...i really do. our happy bang will stay together.
sometimes i wonder, why humans can be so complicated.
why it get so hard to understand what one's think?
what is in their mind?
what is running through in their mind?
i dun understand at all.
maybe that is why i wanted to learn psychology so much.
to know what others are thinking.
to learn to interact with others better.
♥ happy chuseok!!
this is evon.
first of all,i would like to wish all friends a very happy chuseok!! in another words 中秋节快乐！
my sep 13 this year kicked off with a lazy me waking up only 3 plus in the afternoon.
puahahaha nice sleep ^^
my mum said there is food for me and that i can heat them up to eat for breakfast (more like brunch).
so i woke up, and saw that she prepared steamboat stuffs. (shocked)
so....i started working to get ready my brunch.
so....i started working to get ready my brunch.
there is wu xiang in the fridge and guess what? i tot of frying it myself since i am alone at home and i trust my culinary skills.
i guess i have to much confidence in myself eh? my wu xiang got burnt!!!!
next time i should get a wu xiang expert to teach me.
how would i noe wu xiang get cooked that easily?? and so...you guessed what happened to my wu xiang....
i guess i have to much confidence in myself eh? my wu xiang got burnt!!!!
next time i should get a wu xiang expert to teach me.
how would i noe wu xiang get cooked that easily?? and so...you guessed what happened to my wu xiang....
my other dish....
didn't turn out that bad. hahaha but i think it is still uncook...because they taste like rubber>.<
when i ate the golden mushroom...
and a spooky pic>.<
the next thing i know...my kitchen rather messy eh?
oh well, i still had my complete brunch set....
don't i??
to end off, my pic with my artwork of cookery.
ps: that is how i look when i wake up and not doing anything to my appearance.
had our clique celebration for chuseok...and this is our pic spam!
had our clique celebration for chuseok...and this is our pic spam!
tonight we shall not aim for the stars, we aim for the moon. XD
the three of us aimed to take a CLEAR pic, capturing the moment of us in the air when we jumped....but oh well...
the three of us aimed to take a CLEAR pic, capturing the moment of us in the air when we jumped....but oh well...
we emo-ed the chuseok festival>.<
we played basketball in the end. with a group of strangers. and we actually had a chance to win them! considering we are not the professionals and played for our pleasure with no proper trainings.
on friday, we had a day off (marking day), how great was it?
the clique decided to have a clique outing.
we went marina square, suntec and other places?
had a look at artworks. I AM SO ARTISTIC (see below)
hahahaha ^my work leh. not bad hor?
me and huimin.
rather satisfied with my outfit on that day^^
went to this restaurant for brunch? and this was the soup from theset meal i ordered.(rather nice^^)
went to this restaurant for brunch? and this was the soup from theset meal i ordered.(rather nice^^)
different maks i happen to pass by.
beijing olympics closing-bird nest (rather late, posting of this. keke)
how the night looks like at 6 in the morning.
i couldn't get to sleep and i got bored, so i took a pic of the view looking outside from my room's window. camera do no justice to how it really looks like.
my cousin, victoria minle coombs, a mix, 1 year+, and seriously looks like his dad.
WHY CAN'T SHE LOOK MORE LIKE A CHINESE???
i wanna to be a mix too....
mixs are pretty...
♥ worried
Thursday, September 4, 2008
if this is how my life goes, i guess i'm dead.
the life i'm leading....
was it worth it?
was it worth it for me to look back?
the 16 years i lived, was it worth it for me to look back?
i worried for the life i have ahead.
what is there left of me?
i wish someone could enlighten me.
this road to paradise
i guess, i still have a long way to go.
i walk this road with bare soles(?)
as i walked, rocks everywhere.
the pain everywhere,
i will grow as i learn to bear the pain.
i will learn
i will grow
i will
i will
a new me brewing silently
a storm secretly stirring up.
a future unpredictable
a me, impossible to understand.
it is me and me only.
the life i'm leading....
was it worth it?
was it worth it for me to look back?
the 16 years i lived, was it worth it for me to look back?
i worried for the life i have ahead.
what is there left of me?
i wish someone could enlighten me.
this road to paradise
i guess, i still have a long way to go.
i walk this road with bare soles(?)
as i walked, rocks everywhere.
the pain everywhere,
i will grow as i learn to bear the pain.
i will learn
i will grow
i will
i will
a new me brewing silently
a storm secretly stirring up.
a future unpredictable
a me, impossible to understand.
it is me and me only.
♥ my song, and....
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Even though my love for you may fade away
I wanna give you more than words ever say
Cause I believe in you
And my song will fill the air when we’re apart
so even if we may stray away from each other after we graduate.....
Every time when I was down
You always came around
And you love all the lights in my life
you always have stood by my side, like angels so bright
thank you for standing by my side. i know i am not the perfect friend but who is? i always said that i will try to be a better friend who will be caring and more sensitive to friends' feeling but who knows if i had really put an effort to do so.
thank you for understanding how child-like i could be. i am childish at times.
thank you for laughing with me. IT WAS GREAT and weird to say let this.
i just wanna say, thank you friends.
this song delicated to all my precious friends.
to my happy bang family.
ge: eugenice
jiejie: jia ping
my niece? : yee shan or shan shan (like what i always call her)
my nephew?: mabel
my neighbour: pei ling
xiao shu: hui min
my play mate: janel. AHAHAHAHA i always play msn games with her LMAO
and many many friends out there.
thank you thank you thank you.
how precious friendships are.
to end off........
I LOVE KIM JUNSU!!!
hahaha always declare my love for kim junsu^^
I wanna give you more than words ever say
Cause I believe in you
And my song will fill the air when we’re apart
so even if we may stray away from each other after we graduate.....
Every time when I was down
You always came around
And you love all the lights in my life
you always have stood by my side, like angels so bright
thank you for standing by my side. i know i am not the perfect friend but who is? i always said that i will try to be a better friend who will be caring and more sensitive to friends' feeling but who knows if i had really put an effort to do so.
thank you for understanding how child-like i could be. i am childish at times.
thank you for laughing with me. IT WAS GREAT and weird to say let this.
i just wanna say, thank you friends.
this song delicated to all my precious friends.
to my happy bang family.
ge: eugenice
jiejie: jia ping
my niece? : yee shan or shan shan (like what i always call her)
my nephew?: mabel
my neighbour: pei ling
xiao shu: hui min
my play mate: janel. AHAHAHAHA i always play msn games with her LMAO
and many many friends out there.
thank you thank you thank you.
how precious friendships are.
to end off........
I LOVE KIM JUNSU!!!
hahaha always declare my love for kim junsu^^
