Entries of life ★

hey blog, how do you do? i haven't been visiting you for quite some time. i hope no maggots have grown on you. hey blog, you look so dead!!! but no worries i am here!!

any way its depressing!!! it is the third week of holidays since it started and I , evon wong is still here slacking. GOD darn it.

and i have been saying that i will work hard this holiday to amend what is lost. BUT LOOK!!! i am still slacking. this is how evon works when no one sees her at home. I GO CRAZY at home>.<

i tot i will survive *plays [i will survive]* during the holidays but nope, i didn't.
i am dead you see.
BORED to death, heard of it before?

sighs.....

i done nothing at home except to sleep eat go toilet bath use com go DB lalaland....
i did nothing except for the few minutes used to do amaths work before going the god damned tution>.<
i haven't complete my holiday homework. OH MY GOD.
and when i haven't finished fussing about my holiday work and life, this comes DREAM CONCERT. bullshit.

never did i tot dream concert turned nightmare concert or hell concert. this is stupid, seriously.
dream concert never been this bad since it first started 14 years ago.

did you know.......how many ppl was injured at the concert?
i especially want to point out the SNSD matter.
its just bullshit that SNSD is still not out to do something. afterall it all goes to them for causing all this mess.

and junsu can i still say i love you? can i still say i trust you wholeheartedly?
i am still defending you even when my friend right smack in my face told me TAESU IS FOR REAL. i still believe in you. so can you at least come out and say something about your scandal? i am tired trying to tell myself that i can trust you at least till the day you confess, yes taesu is for real. JUNSU i can really believe in you but dun take my trust for granted. thats all.

tell me nothing about taesu or even JUNSU. i dun wanna noe for the time being. my heart aches a thousand. even hearing TVXQ's song hurts so much now.

"but sometimes , the facts are stated in front of us . we could only act that we couldnt see it ! -.-"
what my friend just said. darn. thats like a wake up call for meT-T its as if telling me i am trying to lie to myself>.<>

ah whatever i hate you junsu. making my life this bad.
thats why i say.......TVXQ will be the last idol i go for in my life. going after idol would be something hard. its a long term suffering once you step into fandom.

and at this time its hard for me to cheer up or even joke around with you. it hurts to fake around as if i am happy. sorry pl didn't mean to say that>.<>