no you can't be back. no no no no!

i dun wanna go back to those tears-hurt-sad-depressed days.
NO i dun wan, i said NO

yes i am forgotten, so??
i agreed to, not think of what others say, SO?
i can't do it
i can't control my feeling emotions my thought
i am breaking down into pieces.

how long since i last cried and i actually saw my tears recently, often

no point forcing myself to smile when my heart is bleeding.

can i just walk away
leaving all behind
abandon all
and let my soul free