Entries of life ★

wow did you guys realise that the day i lasted post is the day china sichuan had the deadly earthquake? mmm just realise that >.<

and how long was it since i last posted?

any way the days that passed by were filled with heart breaking happiness and saddness.

i wanna specially mention the rumours of junsu and taeyeon.
this is sort of minor cause to my depression.
what is major cause is my mid years results and some personal problems.

any way the taesu rumours.
if i hadn't gone to soompi i guess my heart will never be this painful.
i know i shouldn't come to this conclusion of them going together, but...
i know i should be trusting junsu but with all the evidences?
i know i should wait patiently for junsu to come out and explain things....
but my heart....
junsu why why of all junsu why you?
junsu why of all why taeyeon?
junsu why why why why?
this heart of mine will start a riot in me.

junsu, the promise i made to you is a lie. A BIG FAT LIE. to cover the traces of my ugliness. i could never let you go.

junsu...junsu...junsu....
i dun wanna let you go.

junsu you do not if you do this i might......forget about you. not to mention TVXQ too.
i dun wanna.
i dun intend to.
i said TVXQ will be the last idol group that i will be going after for.
i dun wanna let you go.

junsu, i never wan to let you go
never.