1 day ago...
the breaking of heart pieces. the falling of tear pearls.
i saw my heart slashed to thousand pieces
i saw a group of being walking pass me.

have you wondered why am i so gloomy...that's only because...

to the someone who caused it
i wasn't there for you.
my presence wasn't there for granted.
i do not have the responsibility to be your clown to make your day.
i enjoy making peoples day but please i am not FREE.

i am not your spare tyre friend. you dun just take it when you are in need and throw it when you dun want it.
did i mention how i hated you always comparing. WHAT ARE FRIENDS? may i ask your definition?

i am a bloody ass here because who i think was family members are not what they are. was it just a front they had or was it just their true self? my tears....are long gone when my heart was so bruised. i realised i couldn't trust people any more. family members...are they really them or just ordinary people who walked passed my life?

i have enough of this. bring me through.
my heart is not bleeding. my wound are found but blood are not found. so am i still alive or just a living dead?

define my purpose of living or i just lie in my earth coffin and rot off and decompose myself into the cruelty soil of humane world.

i need time to calm myself. can't go back to what it use to be. i noe i said i enjoy making people happy but i am a selfish girl who would at least wish they appreciate what i have done for them. really.

and i want true and real who treat me wholeheartedly. no more faking just truth would that do?