Entries of life ★

dang i missed FEB 29!! eek! any way HAPPY BELATED LEAP YEAR! ooohoo!!

any way today was a happy day^^ my parents confirmed with me that i will be able to visit KOREA in coming years!!! omg!! (very likely to be the start of next year!!) OMG! this is a very good news for me!! hahaha i am so going to brush up my korean and all^^ hahaha KOREA I AM COMING! hahaha so korea is gonna strike out. my ad here is....WHO WANNA GO JAPAN WITH ME THE NEXT TIME???

mmmm i kinda is relieved now. i am waiting to confirm my results for english chinese and....combine science....i hope i can reduce the number of subjects failed this term. haiz.

this term it has been hard for me. it is the starting of the sec 4 journey and i know it is not gonna be easy. but i still seem so relax. maybe i shouldn't relax and have so much confidence in myself. i am worried. not only for studies but also friendships. i am wondering how do i maintain good friendships?

i dun like being the fake one in front of my close friends. i really dun. when i am angry i really show it. i dun like hiding here and there. i am sad i cry disappointed i cry angry i scold and swear. SERIOUSLY i dun like being a hypocrite. and when the distance between J and me starts to widen i really fear will we separate into strangers? recently i can't really communicate with her. it is not her fault. i constantly have to think what to say in front of her, i really dun wanna hurt her with my really un-intentionally words. but this is really awkward for me. i really dun like to be like this. why must we have this this this 戒心 between us? i tot we were close enough to accept one's unintentionally words. i dunno it is this feeling.

i fear i might get tired of this strained friendship and give it up and when that day come, i dunno how hurt both of us will be. i dunno why, i felt like crying just thinking of such situation. maybe one of you guys could tell me what to do?

i will get over it soon. i will get over it soon. yes i will.

ok done.