time flies....tvxq now have ended their vacation. back to the seems to be endless work. and as for me my journey seems endless. with anxiety and nervousness fills me everyday, i walk each day with hope.

sorry i dunno how to continue that paragraph already cos...i have no idea...haha

tmr i suddenly dun feel like buying the hat or whatever with my aunt....just suddenly i dun have this mood. any way i was watching one liter of tears ep 1 just now....damn boring cos i have watched it before already, haiz...

was listening to some old songs i have in my com and a sudden of comfort in me. i wonder why these old songs which i have not listened to a long time, gives me such....enjoyment. i wonder.

i miss junsu so much. i wished to meet him soon but as day goes by i starts to wish i never met him before. i wished i returned back to the time i never got to know him. sometimes wishing i never lived. a sudden depression. a sudden downpour. a sudden tiredness.

the road to success is long and tiring. i dun noe if i have this much of time to overcome the long waiting time to success or the energy to overcome the tiredness. i dunno if i could hang on. even now, i dun even noe what i am doing here. searching for the purpose of life. envy of loving couple envy of happiness smiles. i envy all happy moments. i envy lovers to be able to get together. i wished junsu to be mine hahaha but......