Entries of life ★

seeing you to suffer like this really hurts. but what can i do? i am just a fan who suffers too.
you are always showing your smiles in front of us.....but who really noes what you are suffering behind those smiles? seriously i was so hurt and helpless....when i read how tired you really are.....i dunno how to help you....i am only and just a fan. and i can't be with you. i really am worried. but what can i do? helplessly pray for you? yeah maybe that is the only thing left for me. how i wish you could just run away. run away. rest and relax for one day run away just for yourself. stop bothering about how fans feel. go on RUN AWAY. i hate to see you are faking smiles for us. RUN AWAY and rest. i dun care when you are coming back run away and rest. where ever you go i will still be here be your cassiopeia forever. i wan you guys to rest this much i won't even mind you guys disappear from my sight. really. come on runaway from the bloody sm. bloody people who disregard you. bloody people who keeps forcing you. RUN AWAY. stupid sm....stupid people.

idols are human too. why are they treating tvxq who only are average 20 years of old like robots? i mean they tired and they keep forving them to keep dancing and dancing. sometimes i feel like flying to their side and take their tired-ness and everything away.

damn me for being poor damn me for being so useless not able to help my precious boys. do you really noe how i feel now? i feel so god damn useless and helpless? i dunno how to help them....god...i am crying cos i dunno how help them...argh...someone tell me how to help them....they are suffering but i noe they would kinda scold me for describing their dreams as some helll letting them suffering...they choose their path to be like this and they are argh suffering...and i really want to help...god why am i 15?? why am i poor? aish...

TVXQ FIGHTING K?? i dun wish to see you guys suffer...one day i will be there for you when you need someone. one day i will be there to help you. i love you guys.