what she said was right man.....i still can get all hella exited when my grandma just passed away not too long ago and still got the guts to ask for a damn photobook.
i am a bastard shit.
sorry if i still have the guts to ask for a celebration.
i dunno how to face her too. but i was so hurt to hear that from her. i was so hurt but she totally pointed out the main point.
HOW COULD I CELEBRATE WHEN MY GRANDMA JUST PASSED AWAY NOT TOO LONG AGO!!! ah!
i hate myself too. shit.
she was right...
now the point is.... i dunno how to face her and while it is like this i am angry why aren't she telling me these straight when we were on the phone?
i bet she don't even noe...
haiz...i was so damn fucked off hurt.
i am a asshole shit. ARGH