Entries of life ★

it is only a birthday...dun have to be so serious.....and it totally sux when it turned sour.

haiz...it hurts to see people fighting just some birthday thing. worst it is mine. i hate so much if it like this. plus....dun need for celebration since even my family dun really bother,,, how hurt i am.

i can't get things done. it is shit and it sux. i hate it so much. since when i started hating my birthday? i guess this is the first time i hate my birthday and a few times disappointed how my birthday just passed just like that.

i am really depressed....

you know how excited i was and anxious when i saw how happy my friends were when they celebrated jp's birthday one month ago. i hoped mine will be as wonderful too. this is not what i hoped for when it starts to turn sour. they are fighting. shit.

sorry guys i am really not good in choosing a place which suits you. money terms and place terms. seriously a basketball court would be fine too.

I'm so hurt

this hurt so much...

why am i emphasising on birthdays?? cosi was so hurt when i totally really looked forward this day so much and i wanted so much attention from my family and what fucking thing they did? sorry i wanted so much and wasn't this much of understanding too. haiz...PO SORRY IS LIKE YOU LEFT US NOT LONG AGO AND I AM HERE CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY??

i noe i am a total bastard shit...i hate myself being like that too.