Entries of life ★

i have always wondered why my grandmother would like to be a bird in her next life. she said that because it is hard to be human. reasons to be a bird is that it can enjoy freedom, flying so freely in the sky. now i understand why my grandmother would think that way.

humans are living being which are filled with much more stuffs? than any other living things.
they are filled with brains which are clever enough to come up with motives regardless of good or bad. they are filled with double face standards.
am i too naive to understand the world of reality?
does people have to stab people in the back? what i mean is must people talk bad about this person in the back and not tell him in the face? isn't it better to tell the person in the face get the problem solve once and for all.

why humans can bond together this moment and break up the next moment?
why humans can get together to fight one common enemy and break up after completing the mission? why can't they stay together, bonded?

am i too innocent to understand all this?

i dun understand why humans can be like this. the world, yeah, not that good as i think huh?
perhaps i have been a well frog trapped in and away from the real world.
maybe i have been living off too good that i didn't realize what is going on.

po is that what you wanna let me noe? allowing me to see your point of view? po is this what you saw that's why you wanted to be a bird? if it is, i understood it perfectly already. (no offence to my po it is in a really polite manner) po, i now wish to be like you, being a bird, flying freely in the sky.
maybe one day i will be flying with you in the sky? po will you wait for me for that day to arrive?

PO i miss you. do you noe how hurt i was to see how my relatives fall out? how scared i was when i saw that? i always that it was a loving and peaceful family but it all turned out to be false. po, you must be sad to see that too.

po let's pray that everything will be alright, k? po i pray you get to see everything.
but i dun wish again....
po if you see everything wouldn't it break your heart? ah no no!
maybe seeing the good ones? leaving the bad ones to me. leave some good ones to me too, please.

po....how are you? as always i love you.

po remember all those talking i gave you during the wake and all those? remember them ok?

i will carry on the promise i gave you.

po take care on the way...sorry po that i wouldn't be able to take care of you any more. take care of yourself k? you always be in my heart.

I LOVE YOU PO!! wherever i am, i never forget how good you are, how great you are, how strong you are, how loving you are, how much you loved me.

this post is no way pointing any fingers to any of my friends if you are wondering about that.