Entries of life ★

it is nothing...

i dun feel it at all. sorry but everything to me seems so....dead
giving me those talk, giving me those scolding...you think i cared?
giving me those false heart to heart talk....you liar.
calling me stupid you "father"
to think i have such parents.

so childish yet you can call it funny and entertaining. sorry i dun find it funny.go find your other two smart daughters.

sorry i am just stupid i dun need you to say it loud and clear i got it right clear in me.
i always wanted to tell my "mum" something about my "dad" something i always have been suffering in silence.

those "mum" and "dad" seems so unreal.
where goes the loving mum and caring dad?

memories are so beautiful and reality sux to the core.

i wanted to run away...imagine evon without the wong.

i wanted to kill myself but once again my aunt reminded me : bu yao zuo sha shi.
how can i bear to leave the two aunts who brought me up? i haven't pay the debts to them i own them too much.

most of all i can't bear leaving tvxq....how can i...

but do you noe the pain behind those smile. i dunno which smiles are real....

can you believe that i dun smile or laugh at home? can you believe i hardly talked to my family? can you believe i hardly spend time with them? can you believe this is what i call family life?

i miss you po. can you give me a hug in my dreams. min can you come to me...

i am a stupid and silly gal who still thinks that everything about junsu and i would happen.

i should just learn how to go with no fears and just boldness.

smile when you see me perhaps that will make my day.

i hate what i use to call family. i miss my family not "family"

i miss my sis not "sis" i miss my parents not " parents"

i miss my home not "home"

what's wrong with blogger or rather my com...

ok i gonna flood myself with water----bathing...