Entries of life ★

i was getting tired each day, maybe one day i would really jump off that damn building. maybe one day i will shoot myself and blast that damn brain. but as i am typing this i listening to the angel voice of my love. why are they pulling me stopping me...stop it....and let me go but all of you noe that it was just me that i didn't want to leave them. i was really tired of my stupid life with parents which to me is not understanding enough ok i should start appreciate them but sorry i can't i can't possible say a lie to myslef saying that how good are they when they scold you stupid?? oh oh not to mention they didn't trust is what happens in every family. best. i guess what really make me happy is just tvxq. i am just so crazy over them. i admit but too bad they are just so attractive. they just have such power to be in my mind all the time. some time i so wish i would even get to see them in my dreams. i wonder what they normally dream about?? what the hell i tot this was about some kind of student life?? but thinking of tvxq all the time is what is in my student life...haiz...whatever it is...i love tvxq....their songs are like damn nice and their vocals is like nice dao bao...love them to bits...hahaha i kinda started to confess my love to them now...hahaha...

today chinese was so funny. mrs lim is like so funny didn't have such good laugh for a great time...how i wish everyday life was filled with such laughter. everytime i prayed that for tvxq. happiness fun laughter health for tvxq but not once did i prayed for myself. this time i finally remember to pray for myself too. tvxq ranked first really. i think they really touched into my life. they really are the greatest people i seen in this world. the next life i still wish to be their fans maybe i would pray for a slightly better treatment such as being their girlfriend?? hahaha i noe this just can't happen right now cos they are in japan now?? and i am like in singapore?? but who says it can't happen in my this life??

hahaha any way today chinese lesson something really struck me. does parents consider or even bother to ask if the child or students mental is ok... as in the pressure we are going on. all they care is their results others is definately is out of the mind. then i ask you what is the point to have a child when you only care about their results and not their welfare. right?? it does make sense right?? i mean they have children is so that they a offspring when they can shelther them with endless love but it kinda don't huh. damn parents only care about results so that they can show off between the friends. just feel like giving a tight slap. i can't say all this all i can't even think about all this cos all this definately would be such a letdown to tvxq but just let me say this once...haiz...

LIFE SUX LIKE NOTHING SUX.