i feel that i had waste my life and time today...i dunno why...i feel like i had blur blur spent my day today...totally...what actually am i doing?? i dunno what i lived for. maybe i should do some soul searching...i am tired....someday i hoped to slow down the pace of life. maybe stop the earth spinning?? but the earth already spin very slow...oh well. life can be very boring. do you realize that?? it seems that this term holiday is getting bored. like that is nothing for us to do. why do i start to hate holidays now?? but i do noe why i like holidays the last time...i feel so empyt in me...empty...how come i am feeling this way. i feel like asking my mum for a teddy hug. but now...any way i just lost interest in everytime including tvxq. it is just some suddenly lost. not saying that i do not love tvxq any more is just that i lost my heart. i dunno what interest me now. i want to be in a deep sleep. to be kept away from this world. i am like a idiotic gal in this big big world.

this stupid blogger make what this thing it will auto save my post whenever i stop for a while...it is so irritaing...is like it is forcing not to stop typing...it makes me type non sense stuffs!!! haiz....stupid blogger....there it go again!!!

and today i saw there is some ANTI in the junsu bar there!!! i dunno if they are the real anti or what. i got confused eventually....cos....any way i really lost. lost myself to the war.

some times i really wan to rebel not my parents but my sis. i want to paint my nails black it is a sign of rebel. not you but to me. hahah....childish i noe. but hey that is my opinion right? hahaha...i losing myself slowly....hahaha....boring life...