in this pathetic world there is only a limited things that will make me happy till i cry. first is meeting tvxq real in life. after meeting them i could even die in that spot because in my this life i just want to at least let me meet them once. second is them receiving awards. third got even closer with tvxq. not just fans such distance relationship but friends. i can greedy too. i dun wan just friends but even you noe...wife.

today i got a even happy thing for me. TVXQ WON AWARD!!!! VMAJ JAPAN MTV!! BEST BUZZ ASIA FROM KOREA. DO YOU NOE HOW THIS MEANS TO ME?? IT IS THE FIRST AWARDS WHICH I GET TO BE INVOLVE!!! AND AND THEY GOT IT!! THEY GOT IT!!! THEY GOT IT!!! I FEEL LIKE CRYING NOW BUT MY SIS HERE...I CAN'T LET MY TEARS FLOW OUT. TVXQ YOU DID IT....YOU GOT THE AWARD WHICH I VOTED JUST FOR YOU. THIS AWARD MEANS MORE THAN ANYTHING TO ME. PLEASE DO KEEP IT IN GOOD STATE. I AM HAPPY FOR YOU!!! THANK GOD FOR THIS AWARD NOT ONLY TO TVXQ BUT ME TOO. THANK YOU LORD. TO GOD BE THE GLORY!~!

alamak why their live performance in the MTV not what i expected...maybe they too high le ba!! but i still am happy for them. when will i get to see them?? i miss them so much....*cries*