Entries of life ★

i dunno what i should say. i just feel like running away. my life is in such a mess, i dun even noe who i really am. life can be so simple but why does it get so difficult when you tried to make it simple? i only wanted my damn brain to be nice to me... damn brain doesn't listen to me. i am just stupid enough to die right now. sorry but yeah it is true. sinner i might be but lord forgive me. i promise to be understanding and not be so cool. i promise to work hard but lord please let me own some self discipline from tvxq? such handsome and sweet humans are just some distraction and attraction to me. if i can just force myself out maybe life would be just as simple. simple life i just want to have but why those have to come along? i dun wan to have all this experiences i just want a normal life. i dun wan to be nerd i wan to be cool but cool in a good way. but sometimes why does i feel nerd myself?? why can't life just be alone like this and be peaceful. why can't we own our own privacy. we can't be on our own cos...we are constantly surrounded...if there is one place i would like to be in forever i guess it would be in....oh great there is no place in this world. i am just struck forever. chained with hundreds burden, carried thousands stress, locked with many pressure, lived with many unpleasure.

but if a simple prayer works...i would pray for everyday. of cos it does. talk to god and release yourself. god save you and saturn is dismissed. say you are sorry lord will forgive you. am i right lord??