What you see Evon outside

2010-10-12T18:00:00.001+08:00

hello!
its been so long since i last updated my blog here...i'm guilty XD
any way, youtube been giving me shits and youtube collaborates with blogger which gives me shits too.
so imma just say....i will be blogging over at TUMBLR instead :)
more updates there :) this place will be deserted (perhaps i'll here to drop by and pop some random posts HA)

please check my tumblr blog @ sheistheweirdo.tumblr.com

3Q :)

this blog will not be deleted since all the links are here and memories :)

2010-09-22T09:18:00.001+08:00

today's mooncake festival.
oddly, i feel kind of lonely :(
oh well...

happy chunseok! aka ZHONG QIU JIE KUAI LE~

ps: i dun like ppl copying my stuffs -.- can i straggle you?

2010-09-19T04:52:00.000+08:00

the heart is the most complicated subject of all to grab hold on.
i need to know why am i feeling for him when i'm not to sure about him.
its weird.
i'm hurt to see his sweet talk about someone on facebook.
that person is not me.

this heart, needs to be blocked.
i dun wan to cry.

do i look silly now?

2010-09-17T04:23:00.001+08:00

couch potato me yo!
this time i dun even mind being one since i'm down with a serious budget. damn.

anw, i'm enjoying it much with watching shows and sleeping away. ahahaha good life (Y)
i'm watching and there's this hot guy, NOH MIN WOO.
omg hot! and what's shocking is....he's a ex-member of the trax. he's rose. omg omg. the transformation. he's even the guy from 24/7. omg. hahaha
ok i just needed to rant this somewhere ahahaha SO HOT~
keep seeing hot guys XDDD
good life!

2010-09-16T03:03:00.000+08:00

you know what?
i should just stay at home and gladly be my loner.
why should i even bother righttttt
my existence is like invisible.
tsk

2010-09-04T13:09:00.000+08:00

some quotes i did last night. realise when you're angry, you seem to get really out of the world enlightenment and for me, i actually construct my sentences better.

my cousin thinks i'm a weirdo ALL THIS TIMES. sighh

2010-09-03T21:12:00.000+08:00

i hope my efforts get appreciated.
i'm not asking for returns, i just want appreciation.

2010-09-02T19:27:00.000+08:00

funny how i still reminisce the times between me and stickman 2.
somehow, i find him and arnold (from hey! arnold) so much alike.
but arnold is definitely better than stickman 2 >:(

oh yeah, this blog is reallly dead cos i update my tumblr blog more frequently than this :) check my tumblr out!

my sis is super lazy.
why do i, the youngest, have to give in to my sisters, ALL THE FUCKING TIME?

2010-08-26T03:24:00.001+08:00

he crush someone. i crush him. but that someone isn't me.
that's just sad.
it seems like he didn't see me among the sea of people, so i tried to make myself noticeable by commenting his favourite things. But he didn't seem to see me (literally).

why do you mess me up in the first place? if you didn't i probably wouldn't be affected by you.
why put me into such misery?
i feel silly. i'm going to my own planet.

barrage-ed :) fun :) but i aint doing any planner job any more.

2010-08-17T05:35:00.000+08:00

keep moving forward.
trying not to look back at the past mistakes i've made.
so i'm trying hard to improve and avoid allowing history repeating itself.

therefore, i must be strong and courageous to face up my fears.
Be determined! WHOOSH
i can do it if i want to.
i can achieve it as long as i'm firm.

WHEEEE go to sleep nah its 5.35am in the morning. hair still wet. *#&*&$*&#$

2010-08-11T04:20:00.000+08:00

looked through those old pictures during secondary school.
ahhh those times!
we all looked nerd as compared to now xD like how much we changed! hahaha fascinating :)
i have a love-hate relationship with old pictures.
loving it for those memories and hating for reminding me its the past, and you can't travel back in time.

somehow, i just wanna go back and relive those secondary school days. not like i hated them but i actually wanna go through them again and cherish treasure it. sad that i didn't exactly live it to the fullest :(

also, one thing sad about our secondary school life is, facebook pop out after we graduated. its hard to find our old secondary pics you know. zzzz.

ahhhh i miss those times. i really really miss those time spending with HB.
basketball...school...everything.
and this is when i feel like crying. really, could we relive those times soon?

2010-08-09T01:10:00.000+08:00

listening to old timeless songs :)

funny how these songs seem new to me yet familiar hmm
music goes around eh?
:D

HAPPY 45TH SINGAPORE
feel so patriotic now.

2010-08-07T00:52:00.003+08:00

can't wait to take more polaroids!
especially with beautiful backdrop :)
2 upcoming events with beautiful backdrop and people are worth my anticipation of polaroid spam!

k i hope these events goes well and COME QUICKY!
rotting at home. gonna die.

PHOTO SPAMMMMM

2010-07-30T15:40:00.003+08:00

Ger, Kris, Me

I luvvv this pic and its effects :)

Twinnie & Me

Ger, Me, Kavi

PEACE ^_^V

Despicable me and me HAHA

watched despicable me ytd! funny and cute! :D

tada!

Claire's bdae celebration :)

BM0921

FINALLY, presenting to you my 2010 class (HR)

;)

HR group 1

my HR group. i'm da supperrrvisoorrr

poly clique! kavi's bdae celebration :)

2010-07-29T00:25:00.001+08:00

been pasting stickers on MANY flyers for the past 2 days. my fingertips feel sore :(
on a brighter side...i improved efficiency and accuracy on pasting stickers :D
but it feels like hard labour for doing all that manually for just a petty sum. HMMMM
raffles house preschool, you better pay more. thank you :)

its so weird. i dun think i can differentiate clearly between friendship and something we call love.
i'm confused already (Y)

my holidays officially starts in 15 hours time. YAY
YOG rocks, cos students like me who's not involve in it gets to have longer break than the others.
HUR

the brightest star in my universe, just thought of that.
eeek sounds cheesy. but i like it :D

2010-07-26T01:58:00.002+08:00

sighhhh i wish i have a boyfriend like khun :(
khuntoria is making me jealous :(
imma go bang wall now. bye :(

2010-07-17T23:46:00.001+08:00

'Lucifer', in Christianity, Lucifer means the falling angel of the devil.

" A selfish heart, persevering love, wrongly threatened and repeatedly revolving appearance of an angel and devil, lovers having a vague feeling in Lucifer" "The meaning of religion is to have courage".

Shinee's main song for their 2nd album, LUCIFER
so freaking chim, but i like the coolness and its deep meaning :)

btw, i only remember LUCIFER as the bad black cat in cinderalla movie from disney. :P

2010-07-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

there are 3 kinds of acting.
White, Black and Rainbow.
but all in all, with 1 purpose, to act like someone who you are not.

so, when you grown up, you can't keep your innocence in the realistic world. you learn how to hide the real you. acting, is just one way to hide yourself.

its not like exercising your mouth, open and close, to say sorry. it takes courage.
and its not as simple as it is.

2010-07-16T00:11:00.000+08:00

sux to be me.
thanks for the pressure you're putting on me.

thanks for making my life even more miserable when i'm already so pathetic.
sux to even be here.

yeah thank you for making me so fucking upset.
i wish i could run away. at least from you.

its complicated

2010-07-14T01:12:00.001+08:00

hello~
past 2 weeks have been fine.
marketing ica 2 was screwed up btw :(
HR will soon be done and that will conclude projects for this sem and here comes the final exams!
HOHO

in fact, i can't believe i'm saying this, but....i'm looking forward to exams. weird. i think projects killed me too much to think this way.

anyhow, tutors kinda hates me now. why? :(
realized i have this awful ugly angle or expression when i laugh. hmmm please do not take a picture of that! :(

i will not allow myself to be in that dreadful situation again!
NO! please?
like i said, sometimes feelings are hard to control and sometimes i just dont get to choose who to fall in love.
eh?

2010-07-08T01:12:00.000+08:00

FML
what's up with today? i'm just freaking cranky that i can definitely shoot ppl.
sorry, this is what i am when i'm sleepy.
and if you ka jiao me at such time, you will confirm dio my sarcasm and i wont even think before i say and these words can be harsh. and if you were to get upset with it, i need you to be understanding, cos all i want to is to convey what i'm thinking.

ok end. sometimes, its like this, i can't make everyone happy.

2010-07-07T02:39:00.000+08:00

sigh once again i feel old and out-of-date.

my cousin, 4 years younger, actually makes up.
no kidding, make up like make up? you know, eye liner etc
shocked like WAH. instantly i feel freakingly nerdish.
who am i, the older cousin sitting here with my bare face, stunted to see that my 14 year old cousin makes up and actually looks really pretty.
(she looks like a bimbo, ooops)
a 14 year old girl with heavy make up and fake eyelashes? seen that. shouldn't get as shock.
but seriously, teenagers these days are shocking and scaring me.
i feel really weird now.
hahaha oh well, not acquiring the art of make up is no biggie right? :)

argh. I'M OLD ALREADY.
i can't even dress myself up and make up to look pretty :(

tomorrow law presentation. hurry up get it over and done with. whee~

2010-07-03T02:46:00.000+08:00

hahaha omg stickman 2's thinking and words are super profound. so profound that it amazes me!
i have never came across any one as devoted as him. he's like super cute can! he's almost like...INNOCENT. like really innocent. you know?

its like...how do i even explain myself? LOL
as i was reading through his newest post, i was really smiling. he's really the most holy-est person i ever meet. really. like he really repent on his wrong doing which is not committing 100% to his studies and avoiding it with food surfing net and indulge in more music. he's like really sorry. omg no one like him seriously.
he amaes me like WHOOSSHHH
lol so cute.

i know i have been reading his post like this one alot of time but i dunno why this one hits me so funnily..
lol something is so wrong.
lol he's like my big bro that will guide me with his wisdom.
he's so profound!

2010-07-01T23:55:00.001+08:00

sigh...so freaking cranky now.
must be the sleepiness. i'm looking things negatively. can't think no more.

brain's so fucking dead. i think i'm leaving my part for finance proj tmr noon.
nothing's going well for me tonight. can't get things planned.
i should just go bathe and sleep. asap. before i dwell more and become even more emotional.

i'm not dating anyone. so please dun think too much.
and you ask if i have a possible stickman 4, i won't tell you cos i dun even know it myself.
i can't get myself any more.
i can no longer understand how I work.

i should go bang wall now. (Y)

stylist, please dun try anything funny to key's hair. omfg you can't shave his hair.
pray hard key's new hairstyle work well.

2010-06-25T01:36:00.000+08:00

i'm like having a spilt personality lol
after updating a post in tumblr i'm updating blogger now.
of two different sides though.

actually what was my point of maintaining a tumblr and a blogger? ._.
my newest tumblr post could sound a bit sad? but its actually quite an enlightment. go read it yourself :)

any way, i almost got to see BEAST ok!
without tix to their showcase at mediacorp heh heh
but damn, because i went there late i missed the chance to "coincidentally" bump into at the lift.
=.=
stupid much. i spent that time L4D2-ing with yt and hm.
sigh
well at least L4D2 session was fun with shooting down the zombies. like you can kill legally, you know?

proj meeting tmr. bye!

2010-06-21T00:45:00.001+08:00

life's been a hell of a ride, just have to clench my teeth and walk through it.
eventually, just eventually, the light will appear. it just have to.

alright, had 2 basketball sessions this week. good! :D
then, projects meet ups. its like nothing are accomplished. i shall get my parts done tonight.
meeting _ tmr for proj and then rush off again to prepare and meet m for ukiss.
then tuesday another proj. rest for wed and meet up for proj again on thurs and probably an outing on fri.
AWESOME

saw xander today :D he's really cute! hahaha my random xander XD
kevin is damn skinny. what's up with these stick men? O.O

read a fan account on key & jonghyun.
i swear i could really punch key on this.
if anything BAD happen to you, i could really cry like there's no tmr.
stupid key for almost killing yourself cos you were using your phone and not noticing a motorcycle is gonna hit you. i would scold you like how jonghyun did. you stupid idiot. HUMPHS
$&%&($^& stupid guy. thank god for jonghyun, thank you thank you thank you thank you for saving OUR key :D

rah mmm why the sudden entrance of people's affection?

2010-06-17T03:59:00.001+08:00

ahhh i'm suppose to go to bed now so that i have sufficient energy for tmr law project meeting but hunger is keeping me awake :(
after posting those food pictures, i'm even more hungry! rah.

anw, played bball with clique just a few hours ago :)
it was great it was awesome it was fantastic it was good good GOOD~
its always fun to play bball with happy bang :)
bball to me was only fun because i play with them :)
too bad we can't always get together and play that often :(
but its like this that we learn to cherish the moment eh? and that we find it so enjoyable :)

play soon k! :) ok shall go to bed now night peeps! :)

2010-06-17T03:39:00.007+08:00

some time ago, i helped yt with cooking :) making me hungry at 3.45 in the morning :/

some time ago, went out with m and had starbucks for breakfast :) once again making me hungry at 3.49 in the morning :/

then that same day i went out with my best cousie :)

just two days ago, i went out with leng & janel :) 1 day before orchard road was flooded. we were exactly at the same place. we're lucky to choose one day before eh? XD

2010-06-14T00:51:00.003+08:00

i'm cursing computers and laptops so badly.
i think i should really consider living without them.
i could save a whole lot of computers.
rah :(

once again, i feel so sian!
rah >|

for you.

meanwhile, shinee's coming back soon! july 6 for teaser!:)
taemin's building up muscles :S and my key is getting much more ~~pretty~~ handsome :)

2010-06-12T18:11:00.000+08:00

hello!
i had a vvvvvv good longggg sleep last night :)
slept till 3pm! awesome :) i'm charged ttm :)

i'm really to face the finance proj this monday. lol
then i will be so bloody dead to face thursday's law proj and friday's hrm proj.
then i will spend sunday and monday for ukiss then tuesday for marketing.
haha packed or not? i din even plan for any outing except for leng and janel's one which that have yet to be confirmed.

*#&(#^%&#

so busy! its a love hate relationship regarding this busy schedule.
I WAN MY HOLIDAY! WITH FINANCIAL BACK UP. HOHO
i see nice clothes online. kns

2010-06-11T05:38:00.000+08:00

life's here and there.
there's happiness and sadness.

i'm finally done with efma project!
(at least i'm already touching the finishing line and is about to break that)
YEAH
i'm wide awake at 5.34am, and shocked to see people are already awake! on facebook and msn XDD
WOW

any way, FINALLY TERM BREAK.
i've been awaiting for your arrival. thank god you're here.
and so are the projects ._.
please no more leader dirty jobs for me.

this term break, gonna see UKISS and probably BEAST
goodie~! for my eyes WHOOSH
hello xander :D

2010-06-04T04:17:00.000+08:00

heard this song called Don't Leave by Baek Ji Young.

got me crying tonight.
and i dun even noe what i'm upset over.
perhaps its how life's not going well recently resulting me much more emotional.

"Do you know who
the person who had to let you go,
As they clutched their heart?

That person is me,
Please love that person."

혹시 알고 있나요
뒤돌아서 가슴 쥐고 그댈 보내주는 그 사람
그 사람이 바로 나예요
그 사람을 사랑해줘요

2010-06-02T20:59:00.001+08:00

irritated.
i tell you NYP system sucks to the biggest hell.
i freaking tapped and attended law lecs ok?
SAS sent me warning letter saying i skipped 2 lectures. LIKE HELLO? i went!
fuck you.

i need to go find winnie lie about this and mrs pang for efma project. MY LIFE SUCKS OK.
arghhhhh

2010-05-31T02:26:00.000+08:00

omg i just watched a video, HEART ATTACK-ed.
oh my goodness, swing the kid like some toy. sia la almost faint,
you know you're not suppose to shake kids vigorously? you will cause some inner damages to the kid's brain! DAMN
that kid's dad is some freaking moron. sia la, you will regret if anything happens to the kid.
damn you.

argh. stupid.
i'm already feeling under the bloody bad weather and this father is so darn dumb.
irritated only.

any way...i'm planning to volunteer myself to make-a-wish foundation :) i know i have said it before last sem but this time i'm serious. really. life's been really boring. i have nothing to do and so, why not help kids with life-threatening medical conditions? right? my life will be so meaningful :) i will learn to be emotionally stronger and hopefully i wont get any more depressed :)

PEOPLE PLEASE JOIN ME! i dun wanna be alone :( i might just abort this operation if i'm doing this alone :(

hello baby :)

sigh...he's so pretty..i wanna be half as pretty as him :)

i like his natural hair best :) seems like he cut his hair. i like this hairstyle :)

ok night ppl!

2010-05-30T01:04:00.000+08:00

life's been a bitch.

i'm so overwhelmed with saddness out of no where.
feel like crying and feel so lost.
somewhere...
i think i lost my point.

i'm going to think about my life and i'll be back soon.

not too soon i guess.

2010-05-25T01:36:00.000+08:00

hello my fellows!

i should be studying for my marketing management test and probably for business finance but heck i'm here!

listening to few english songs and thought i should share them and it's lyrics :)

first up! song called Airplane by B.o.B featuring Hayley from Paramore :)

pretty awesome :)

i could really make a wish right now.

actually, i dun really, specially needs a wish right now, but if i have to, i wish to pass all my tests. thanks :P

so, wishing upon airplanes....hmmm i tried, but apparently those airplanes "crashed". none of them came true :/

next, its the song Stop for a Minute by Keane featuring K'Naan.

heard it from the radio, twice and that statement describes the way i am and how i feels.

really, songs are the best way to express yourself when you are lost.

Some days, feels my soul has left my body
Feel I'm floating high above me
Like I'm looking down upon me
Start sinking, everytime I get to thinking
It's easier to keep on moving
Never stop to let the truth in

Sometimes I feel like it's all been done
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one
Sometimes I wanna change everything I've ever done
Too tired to fight and yet too scared to run
And if I stop for a minute
I think about things I really don't wanna know
And I'm the first to admit it
Without you I'm a liner stranded in an ice floe

Just sharing the whole of first half of the lyrics which spoke my soul :)

lastly, the song Pyramid by Charice featuring Iyaz :)
its a great song where it talks about how strong love is & can be even if natural disasters or mother nature seperate two lovers. This love comparing to the strong standing Pyramid.

try listening to the 3 songs :) btw, i did the pics for pyramid and stop for a minute :D i'm good huh? XD

shit. my elbows' condition getting worst. shit. i have this bad itch condition for both of my elbows and i will tend to scratch it and now the skin is kinda....ewwww look like cow skin (what mum said).
jia lat the condition damn bad. the cream is of no use. it till itch like fuck so its stil gonna worsen. fuck.
i think i needa go see the doc for this. argh.

okok spent lots of time on this post hahaha i needa prepare resume too! DIE LO

2010-05-23T04:58:00.000+08:00

early in the morning 4.51am :)
i'm wide awake! :( but i think i still sleep like a pig if i hit the bed right now :D

all those flashy lights! those cameras go click click and all those flash goes all at once.
how does those artistes endure that? and also not blinking for pretty pictures :O
awesome...flashy lights~

ewww saw key's hairstyle at dream concert. alamak!
and he had red eyeliner. i have no objections for that XD
dubu's hairstyle was abit....urhhhh ;/
taem, JJong and minho are fine...(just that i'm lazy to comment XD)

watched Robin Hood today! personally, i think its a great movie :)

"Rise, and rise again. Until lambs become lions."

it means not to give up :)

embarrassing night :( cleared up and now feeling weird. sigh~

2010-05-17T03:28:00.000+08:00

rah i wanna do some shopping soon! :(
i wanna get blouse and a REALLY fit jeans and round sneakers/shoes :(

i'm a bit more of a loner by each day.
hey people why arent we contacting each other since our last meeting?
although i'm sure individualy you guys contact some...why not me? :(

i'm still quite excited to meet him you know.
although i'm not sure how long i'm gonna wait...

meanwhile..i'm addicted to NU A BO dance! :D
fierce enough xD i'm gonna master it and do the shirt lifting hurhur :P

2010-05-15T01:56:00.000+08:00

hello :) been a long time since i lasted updated.
life's been tough recently, was really upset and depressed over a couple of things but i guess i'm now much better.

i always thought all the friends whom i'm close to are good people. what i meant was, i believed if friends are close enough, they won't bitch about each other and would have kept their secrets. i was wrong. i thought after the friends issue during secondary 1 was over but now poly year 2. seriously, i just have to face these kinds of things in every education level? zzzz well at least i know who are my true friends.

please dun break my heart. please. too much depressing events are happening and my heart aint strong. its very fragile. it breaks, i break easily.

and i vowed not to love anyone any more. too tiring and torturing. well at least i'm dealing that better than healing myself on the friends issue. no more one-sided love for me. controlling hard on making this one fail and making the wanted-to-but-still-failed one die. (if you get what i mean)

today my family got into a minor accident. some guy banged my dad's car from the back :( poor car! took one hour to settle with the guy =.= well that's quite an experience, was really shocked and for a spilt second, i was afraid if anything bad were to happen like erm we were send flying out of the car etc. but thank good we're all safe just a little bump for our poor car :( tomorrow dad and mum will settle matters with that guy. no more accidents please.

well, after that little incident, i can now understand how people feel when they are invovled in an accident. ahhh being alive and still able to be with my love ones is good. thank you lord and grandparents for looking out for us. thank god thank god thank god.

lost my vibe recently. like a deflated balloon losing its air and slowly getting emptied.
i hope i get back my center if not, prepare to see me emo.

cut my hair :) look more like a secondary schooler. doubt any one will believe i'm 18 with this look now :P

2010-05-07T01:40:00.000+08:00

went to National Museum of Singapore on wed for NE. rediscovered SG's history :) HMV meant His Master's Voice haha cool.

for the sad, unhappy ones. cheer you up :)

is what i need to be able to say this...

Twins!

group shot polaroid :)

that's all folks!

tomorrow is friday! which is...NO SCHOOL FRIDAY! :D

2010-05-05T02:47:00.000+08:00

its 2.45am now.
i'm suppose to wake up at 6.15am to attend 8am class.
best right? and i've have do ICT and NE project tomorrow. i foresee a very tiring wednesday :)

wanted to post some pics in this post but hey look at the time! and my eyes! they are closing already :(
okok bye.

2010-05-03T01:46:00.000+08:00

Happy Bang :) finally met the other 6 for a clique outing after such a long while!
had dinner over at Lena's and took lots of photo, some polaroid and neoprints :) good (Y)

Miss you guys so much! i wonder when can we ever meet again? :(

2010-05-01T02:14:00.000+08:00

saw Junsu's schedule for the singapore trip.
i'm guessing there might be a chance he will be at vivo.
but i'm tired. every part of me, tired.
i wanna stay at home and rest but my heart shouts i wanna see Junsu.

so in the end, i decided to let this golden chance go.
i have tutorials left undone and quiz to study.
I'm sorry Junsu, i wanted to make use of this chance to fulfil my 4 years dream to see you but just...not the right time. i regret too and i really hate myself for not being able to be there.

Lord, tell me there are still chances and hopes that Junsu will come back to Singapore.
for this lifetime, i need to see him.

now i going back to my corner and comfort my hurt soul of missing Junsu.

2010-04-30T03:33:00.000+08:00

i need to seriously find a wall to bang on. how dumb can i be?
i should have just listened to the inner me and checked soompi earlier!
Junsu arrived on thursday instead of friday!
can i really go bang myself now?

but oh well, at least ignorance saved me from being squeezed and pushed by a good 300 crowd.
BUT OMG its Junsu we're toking about!
damn.

the thing about him in Singapore is awesome enough.
NO NO i wanna see him! for most of my life i have been awaiting for this chance!
I NEED TO GO SEE JUNSU! damn.

my life is so over :(
its going down!

okay i finished my rant. making plans on how to meet Junsu if not, its really no fate. sigh

2010-04-25T03:59:00.000+08:00

The 3 stuffs i got recently and have been talking much about XD Polaroid Cam, Bowler Hat aka round hat and my 'new' laptop :)

see what i did to my polaroid cam :D i pasted the cow sticker on it as well as the star moon nail art sticker on it hur hur now its evon styled :P

showing you how's my polaroid diary looks like :) its not that fancy and artistic but at least its something i'm doing to keep and maintain my memories knowing how forgetful i can be. I know the memories kept in there is worth looking back and i dun wan to spare the chance of forgetting them :D i dun wan to forget my precious people :'(

<3 i need to take a family polaroid soon!

out with mabel the other day to collect our item :) thought my hat looks big but it turned out small for my head =.= i have a big head! but that doesn't mean i have 大头症 >:/

2010-04-23T01:25:00.000+08:00

thank god for no school fridays!
i should be sleeping now but seeing its no school friday tmr i shall just stay a little while more spamming Key's raising idol vids :)
oh, do you know that i'm in love with a guy who looks damn sexy and awesome with blue eyeliner?

my hottie :) not forgetting my other hottie Junsu! he's coming next week y'all know? yipee :D

went for my school's club crawl today. saw a guy having the same round hat as mine :O any way, played one round of the water activities and stopped heh :P

went home at a very bad timing where the rain was super duper ultra heavy. there's no way to avoid the rain, wind too strong :( my new bag was a tad wet and this is when i'm grateful for the waterproof material phew!

i'm really tired tonight, but despite that, i insist in watching at least some parts of Raising idol heh :P

saw this scene in school some day ago. it just struck to me that how people just can't come clean about their stuffs with their friends. well if the "new" friends get to know why can't the "old" friends know too? i wonder why people just can't come clean and have to keep a mum about such a thing. Dun ask me why but i'm disappointed and upset. i dun even really know why. maybe i just thought if people are close enough like old friends, they should be able to come clean with such matter. argh, maybe i'm just jealous?

2010-04-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

i have learnt a lesson today.
Not to expose your unused polaroid films. they will spoilt it and thus when you try shooting a pic of it, it will come out blank.
and with that, i wasted 2 unused polaroid films (worth $2.40) as the lesson fee.
itchy hand is the culprit and the criminal to the death of the 2 poor innocent unused polaroid films :(
i'm sorry and learnt my lesson :'(

well, today i tried to accomplish IT related stuff with my "new" laptop today.
with the success of configuring my school's connection, i hope the heucampus installation will be just as good (please please pretty please...!)

gastric is still here! why?! i ate my med! humphs!
okok i have to finish this post quick and get back to finish my busfinance work (can't believe i'm doing tut work during the first week of school :(((

well that's should be all for now :)
need to buy the polaroid films again. hope its not that expensive! bye!

2010-04-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

2 days of school and i'm totally drained.
sigh, i was intially excited to know who's my new classmates but now i'm totally zzz
my new classmates are...not what i was looking forward to.
maybe i was pinning too much hope on being in the same class as JS (not Junsu yo XD)
argh i must say me and JS are not fated~

and today! yes today! i fulfilled my polaroid camera dream!
yesh, i bought it! along with a pack of the film.
now i only left 3 of them. HAHAHA
was going around taking pics.
zzzz and my aunt just took a pic of herself and her daughter without even thanking me.
i mean its really fine using my cam to take a pic but isn't it basic courtesy to thank me?
hate you. zzz

oh well..i'm gonna do up a polaroid diary.
the notebook i bought from BooksActually will be used for my polaroid camera :)
its already filled with 9 polaroid. wow
:)

my aunt bought me a new backpack! YAY

my friend commented, wah you getting all new things hor?
then i told her, the "new" laptop i got is not exactly new.
haha
oh i went to sim lim square today :)

GASTRIC visits again.
i'm going to rest now. have to bring my laptop to school tomorrow :( and i have a 8am school tmr and thursday.
at least i have no school for fridays :D

2010-04-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

you can be an angel and a devil.
YOU are so two-faced.

i think my aunt is really really good :)
she really really dotes on the 4 of us.
over the years, she's willing to give up her time, energy, money for us.
you know she always buy REALLY expensive stuffs for us? no kid.
if you accumulate the stuffs she bought for us over these years, we'll be darn rich.
and i blame myself for not being a better niece of hers.
sorry and i love you.

i sound so weird.
oh man.
i think the world's gonna end. somehow.
oh well....weird...weird...weird...

2010-04-15T18:26:00.000+08:00

i think i have said this before but imma gonna say this one more time.

about 1/3 of my year 1 class mates are gonna be in my new class.
and i'm curious to find out he other 2/3.
most of all, i'm curious to find out if i'll get to survive through seeing him for the rest of my poly life.
god is making fun of me.

sigh. mabe something will happen out of it?
like please make us be normal again?
at least just being friends is enough for me.
you get what i mean?

:(

2010-04-14T22:14:00.000+08:00

Konichiwa! :)

share with you a magical story i encountered while i was having my dinner a few moments ago:)
while i was eating my food, my dad told me someone was calling me.
so i turned back and saw a little girl looking at me.
weird and puzzled since the little girl's a total stranger to me.
so when i was looking at her, i smiled and waved at her and guess what?
she smiled at me! :D
you know how little kids are shy towards stranger? and the fact that she's looking for me when we dunno each other?
its so magical.
and when we're leaving, i think she was looking for me...hmm
any way, so i turned back at her direction and she waved byebye to me!
wow and we din even know each other! and she waved byebye to me!
its so wow and magical you know?

i have never met anything like this and i feel so mmm touched?
my dad says its fate.
but i feel that its more than that like she's someone i have been looking for?
now thinking back, i suddenly feeling like crying.
was she someone i was looking for from my previous life or something?

i still think my encounter with this little girl is so magical.
maybe i'll see you again:)
till then, grow up well :)
it was nice to meet you :)

2010-04-10T17:19:00.000+08:00

HELLO! :D

i'm still feeling sore for a few things :(
first, the thought of facing stickman 2 for the next 2 years.
second, yesterday's pulau ubin cycling trip. great workout though :) lots of mosquitoe bites zzz
third, dong bang ahh :(
forth, i want more Shinee Hello Baby :(

can't wait to start school. really, at least in school i have things to do.
i feel so freaky dead and wasted.
SHIT
i should have done volunteer works this holidays! oh man why did i think of this for the last week of holidays?
dumb ah evon zzz

i just saw my sec 4 commonwealth essay. hahaha! damn dumb, i wrote it with the perspective of COCKROACH. hahaha! omfg. haha

and i saw my old photos. throw face only. HAHAHA my nerd nerd face haha omg haha

2010-04-04T05:03:00.000+08:00

do you remember the times when i was so crazy over Dong Bang Shin Ki?
do you remember the times when i can't seem to stop going over and over again about Dong Bang Shin Ki?

and the songs that Tohoshinki sang that speared through my heart.

my Dong Bang Shin Ki, my Tohoshinki
when will i ever see you again?

i realise this time i'm even more hurt.
there's no more hope and promise when the 5 of them will stand on stage together again.
Tohoshinki group activities suspensed.
Dong Bang Shin Ki group activities suspensed.
what am i suppose to do now that my hope that at least 5 of them could perform on stage together in Japan gone?

tonight, the sky looks grey enough.

how the 5 of you forget the times you have gone through together?
the memories? happy ones? touching ones? no? none?

i dun wanna just support Junsu or Yoochun or Jaejoong or Yunho or Changmin.
i wan to support TVXQ as a whole.
you get what i mean? fcuk

why did 5 of you choose this way? why?
fcuk.

my life is so over. i'm gonna go to one corner and knock myself out.
even hello baby is ending.
fml
nothing is going right.

2010-03-31T05:04:00.000+08:00

every minute every second, someone is dying.
every minute every second, we are dying.

so why are we being hard on our lifes?

search within yourselves and find an satisfying answer.
i hope it helps to spurt you on.
PEACE ^_^V

i'm lost...again! argh, you know how it feels to be lost? and have no sense of direction? you have no idea where to go and you don't know what lies ahead. its scary and insecure. i'm kinda like this now. kinda...lost hope. where have my spirit go?

i have a crazy mission to go through SHINEE thread from the top. which means i'm scanning through 1000 over pages. good luck! :D

i banged my head against the wall today. it was an accident! my sis called me hopeless since i could even bang my house's wall. i lived here since 4. oh well...i'm getting the DUBU CONDITION.

please my kuku-ness? too many embarrassing moments...sighhh

2010-03-29T04:35:00.000+08:00

hello~!

these are the pictures (combined together) that i have wanted to post up:) *ignore that pop-up*

the Dr.Martens slippers my aunt bought for me, cow stickers meant for Onew is now officially mine XD, cute plasters! giant ice cream and green sandwiches~ :)

Soon it will be mama's birthday :) will be ice skating again soon yay! with my daughter and kim :)

i finshed breaking dawn! there goes twilight series and edward-bella :) sigh, now i wanna know they live their forever and forever and forever. oh man.

will finish up travelor's wife and then start lovely bones! whoo~

tomorrow i will be out with janel to get her very belated present :)

will be heading to Heeren then Far east plaza for tom tom! :D

and i finally ordered my round hat! along with mabel's cardigan and yt's straw hat :)

i hope it will arrive on time so that i can wear it to meet junsu! Junsu will be in SG on may 1st. YAY

school's starting soon now that it's approaching april :) looking forward :D

i wonder if i'm starting TEP first or...?

i wanna know my new classmates! i wanna know if J will be the same class as me XDD

stickman 2 will most likely be in my class. sigh.

its will unavoidable. i was pinning my hope on this specialisation thingy to be freed from him. Like i dun get to see him, finally away from him, i need not see him 5 days a week. and the outcome had to be this. still weird enough, i'm not disappointed. hmmm i guess i kinda expected such outcome since i already know he chose the same as me. HR. zzz oh well, let's hope J is the same as me and him. ha then the fun will begin. hehehe

2010-03-27T04:56:00.000+08:00

hi :)

my mood now is neither here nor tthere. its not this yet not that.
you know? its complicated. wonder why its like this. hmm

any way, just settled with m about g markets stuffs. will be finalize the stuffs we're getting and send the email to ekorea for order placement. Finally putting words into action to get my round hat. whoosh~

i dreamt that i dropped 5 of my teeth.
i woke up and i had to check if my teeth are secured with my gums.
dreams felt real enough for me to be this retard.
sigh

i will be up early tomorrow to offer prayers for my paternal grandparents.
its been long since i offered my prayers to them.
i missed you guys :(
it always felt odd to see the once there scene gone, replaced with another.
and there's always a sting whenever aunt eyes teared up when you guys are mentioned.
and seriously one more thing, i seriously do really dislike your forth son. hate to admit. my uncle. the worst adult ever seen.

argh. g market offers so many awesome stuffs! i could stay at home and do all my shopping :)
all those nice designs...hats, shoes, clothes...oh my mama thank god for g market!

i'm finishing breaking dawn! whoosh~then off to finish travelor's wife then THE LOVELY BONES! yesh, i bought the novel already! :D oh oh i'm gonna save up for polaroid cam! WAIT FOR ME :D

<3

2010-03-25T05:03:00.001+08:00

ahhh wanted to blog a meaningful post but when i see the big blank space, my motivation gone.

well, be back again to upload the pics then XD

got back my results not too long ago.
wasn't as well as i expected.
was so upset that i cried. this is not what i wanted. really.
and after all the efforts i have put in, the results is so.
i might as well go kill myself.

any way i still got into the specialization i wanted, HR
one good news at least zzzz
guess about 50% of my year 1 classmates will be in my new class this year too.
argh, this is a happy and sad thing.
zzz
and i see 2 smart ones in my class. see how i feel inferior and dumb in front of them. zzzz
and my family wont stop rubbing salt into my wound of getting a lousy grade. argh fcuk.

ok getting irritated as i go down. bleah.

2010-03-21T01:22:00.001+08:00

now if i could share with you all of my stories..

i realise there are so many good female singers!
like amy pearson, IU, olivia ong...wow they have such soothing voice! i wish i could be like one of them :'(
sadly my voice is nowhere near their level..(or maybe it is? heh ;P)
its time to go noraebang~i wanna sing sing sing!
sing my heart out! sing sing sing the words out that my heart felt so much!
my talents are too wasted to be spent at home HAHAHA

alright, its time to spend some quality time with good sooting music with a book in hand! :)
i'm gonna finish breaking dawn first then the travelor's wife and finally the lovely bones! :)

see ya!

2010-03-17T03:20:00.002+08:00

throat hurts like fcuk.
hurts when i swallow something.
somewhere at the end of my nose tunnel, something's stuck.
worst, gastric is back.
suffering is back.

argh, and i'm going out tmr. see how i die. zz
tmr will be a great day out with leng and janel.
go to sleep evon wong.

damn those typos

2010-03-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

i'm getting emo already :(
i'm slowly liking the idea of staying at home and slack. That's bad!
but on the flip side, i could save money! :DD and get all comfy! hoho

today's a wonderful day i'm telling you :)
the weather arent that hot or that cold. its at a wonderful temperature a tad cooling ;)
now if only singapore maintain this weather for the rest of my life...

you know what? i wanna try smokey eyes. like key's just to try something new.
alright i'm really out of mind already. argh what's is wrong with me!

to-buy list

2010-03-12T00:50:00.000+08:00

Unfulfilled To-Buy List

1)
2)

3) or
oror

Fulfilled To-Buy List

Breaking Dawn Novel

with a "bang"!

2010-03-12T00:33:00.000+08:00

today was mightly great :) i'm happily contented :D

went to Singapore's Korea Plaza to ~~play~~hang out:)
main part is i get to try on REAL hanbok. yay!:)
many thanks to my poly clique who brought me there and went in there with me when i want to :)

i love hanbok! was not embarrassed when the staff were staring at us because i had them with me:)
i even secretly brought home a korean tea bag hehe :P
next time i shall bring Happy Bang and my family there:)
with my polaroid camera :)

speaking of which, i had a few of the to-buy list items striked off:)
got breaking dawn book at a much cheaper price at san bookstore (phew!)
found out that buying the lovely bones novel at popular is super worth it (only 13 bucks!)
also realised i made a wise decision to buy the time travelor's wife novel at HMV which only caused me 10 bucks. (way cheaper than any other places!)
lastly, the polaroid camera i saw Key using in Hello Baby Ep 7 part 5 is exactly the same as ger's.
which makes it way affordable (119 bucks)! YAY!
so i'm thinking should i get blue or pink? :|
i wanna get the camera real soon! take a very nice family protrait :) Happy bang too :)

went to Books Actually too :)
its a very nice, old school, vintage bookstore and others :) very very nice. i really like the stuffs there. Books, notebooks, cards blah blah very very nice :) OH! and paper bag they use is super to my liking! (good thing i said yes to having a bag heh :P)
bought 2 wooden milk bottle for decorations :) planning to have one for key and one for me :) but i'm thinking does key like milk? HAHA i know taemin like XD
OH! i also have this cow, cow and milk sticker for onew. But i'm thinking, should i give it to him or leave it for me? hmmm :/

okok pictures time! just had to post these. everywhere hahaha!

2010-03-09T01:59:00.000+08:00

"what happened?"
"who are you talking about?"
"are you gonna be alright?"
"i hope you're better now"
"thank god you're managing well"

these are what went through my mind while registering your words.
but it will never be heard or seen by you.
and you probably will never know.
cause its slightly impossible to say it to you.
and how i saw your words....can't let you know.

just be happy? will you?
and slowly, my mind will drift off.
just be happy while i'm letting go the grip.

2010-03-07T19:45:00.001+08:00

i'm sooooo bored....
people...ask me out leh! :(
i've been staying at home rotting and rotting for almost a week already! :(
bring me out to exercise i also happy :( RAHHHH

i know i have gotten over you but sometimes its still hard to face you.
so if i could, i would avoid any interaction with you.
i'm a coward who lack of strength. sorry.

created a tumblr account but dunno how to work it so am going to give up.
i'm an IT noob. zzzz

Feast on your life

2010-03-05T04:50:00.000+08:00

아이고~
i'm still awake :D early in the morning 4.44am~ :P
let's just pray i won't sleep till 5-6 in the evening :X

i heard a nice song today- 4Men's baby baby
sounds pretty good enough :) its my blog song so do enjoy it whilst reading my blog :)

and i have yet decide what color to buy for my round hat!
Purple? Grey? or a darker Grey?
i even made little notes and make a random pick.
tried 2 rounds with one result on grey and purple each.
i will make the final decision tmr! its time to go bathe and go to bed! :)

Round hat
The lovely bones novel
Breaking dawn novel
Polaroid camera
dye hair-ash purple

i'm gonna accomplish the above list asap! :)
meanwhile i shall spend time reading The time traveler's wife novel :)

2010-03-04T01:09:00.000+08:00

you know, you almost got me.
with all your lies and all your sweet nothings, you nearly got me.
you were going to be there the next time.
i'm awake now. you won't get me and you never will.

my blog look so dull and moody :(
i'm getting upset by it too :(
sigh...how far would you go to attain happiness? :(
upset again :(
why do people lie?
ah any way i live in my own lie too so what's the point....

please let this holiday end now :(

2010-02-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

i feel like i'm floating now.
my head feels so heavy that i feel like i'm swaying from left to right.
but my head is putting its weight on the right.
and i think i've got flu.
itchy nose and i need tissue.
thank god its way better now than afternoon.
all in all, dun feel very well now.
suck to be sick during your holidays. :|

went out for a job hunting.
i was focusing more on that particular ice cream shop XD
i hope they do hire me :) i like that shop and i dun mind if its pay is 5. if any lesser, i'm gonna think about it XD

i need to save money. I'M BROKE.
shit
i have like 4 more things to buy:
1) Round hat
2) The lovely bones novel
3) Breaking dawn novel
4) Phone screen protector
damn it suck to be poor. i wanna get these stuffs asap. i should get breaking dawn soon since i really wanna know whats the ending for edward and bella :) i know a lot of ppl dun like this twilight series, but i enjoyed reading it so dun eww BLEAH

okok i think i should go ~~shit~~ bathe now

2010-02-28T01:15:00.000+08:00

Guys can be insensitive to girls' feelings.
and that's mostly true.
i must say girls' can be insensitive to how guys would feel.

but today, i just think guys are really bad. dun they know what they do or say affects girls quite alot.
girls are likely to think more out of something and are a whole lot emotional.
so i tend to expect guys to be more sensitive.
so from what i see from the guys around me, they are insensitive.
i dunno what i'm saying now.
gah

its just...sorry i know its unfair to the guys...but just let me rant ok?

i wish i could hug my sis now :(
tell her i love her. and that i hope she will be happy. dun cry.

but i can't cos i doubt she will feel any better...

i once vowed that if he made my sis cry one more time, i will never forgive him and will give him a good beating. zzzz but i can't, cos its highly impossible for me to do that. and it will get harder for my sis if i get involved. sigh..just cheer up my sis.

blank

2010-02-27T04:19:00.002+08:00

i need to learn how to master mind controlling.
too many things going on in my mind and its making me really really down.
i wish i could just look at things more simplier and that i dun think too much out of it.
and most of the time, i wish i could just block out those stuffs.
it just gets harder each day.
isnt it a good thing to stay as a child forever? No troubles and worries just pure happiness in the most naive world?

on a lighter note...i'm getting my round hat!;)

i should stop reading romance books, stop watching romance shows.

it's killing me inside out. ROAR
and its 4.21am now, HUNGRY;(
food....where are you...i heard my stomach growling like...4 times :/

away

2010-02-23T16:03:00.002+08:00

weird.
and its bothering me.
frustrating.
tried sorting it out but its really something i dun understand.

aside from that, i've made a promise to myself not to bother any more.
i feel dumb that blank is still clouding up my mind.
its silly.

now i'm saying this, i'm glad that next semester will be a new beginning.
its my only way to escape from blank.
i'm gonna miss school time with my poly clique though sigh...

oh well...one more paper and i will be free from this troubled year 1.
i hope Year 2 will be a better year, please.

i'll make sure year 2 will not be a repeated history of year 1.
i'll make sure no one knows how i feel.
damn it.

2010-02-10T20:10:00.001+08:00

remember, my love.

2010-02-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

ARGH, so irritated.
i can't understand how one can conduct their business in this way. are they dumb or what?

they blame me for sending them 2 different order form and mislead them to thinking i ordered two mugs.
omg, dun you read the emails? the second order form was sent with BOLD words to show that i top up additional 1.50 to the previous payment.
now you blame me for misleading you?
its your own fault for not reading properly or at least if you're unsure, you could email me to make sure?

dun you know customer is always right?
the way you conduct your business bound to drive your customer away.

i feel so dumb to patronize you again after the previous incident which proves your inefficiency.
what a lousy service. most of all, your business attitude totally hit the ground.

sucker.

2010-02-07T02:43:00.001+08:00

with my dreams, i will soar high

shinee days!

2010-02-01T20:57:00.000+08:00

hello! its been quite some time since i last updated. HOHO

any way, my hair (after settling) is actually quite not bad. guess i wasn't being patient enough ><
also, I SAW MY KEY.
yay! :)
he look the same as on my computer screen! just that he looks more big size XD
i saw him for real! can't believe he was just a table away from me!
bad thing is....i always cant clearly remember the most precious moments.
like the part he looked at me Hi and Bye...
and i was so sad that he only said HI and BYE to me =.=
i'm so greedy ><
any way, I MET KEY! YAY YAY
key and Shinee do come back again! :)

they are probably performing now at esplanade...sigh.
i wanna see shinee live performance too...
BUT its expensive you know...zzzz oh well...GAH
i want more of key! shit getting too obessive over key and shinee.
someone save me?

2010-01-25T20:56:00.001+08:00

dun talk about my room.
just look at my cui hair.
i'm gonna die in embarrassment and total disgust.

my hair...tell me how to survive?
key is coming this friday night. and i'm gonna see him with this cui hair.
someone grant me a miracle then somehow, my hair will look good.

seriously. just kill me now.

2010-01-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

transformation of room-----> completed
a whole new layout.
i'm so proud of myself :D

will take pics of room! :DDD

up above

2010-01-24T02:30:00.001+08:00

gastric problems has once again visited me.
sigh.

knew it. since i was having irregular meals for the past 2 days.
sigh.

projects are killing me in a way.
but i'm glad its all gonna end soon.
i'm actually looking forward to exams than projects. its really weird.

on a lighter note, SHINee is coming! :D
that's something really really good and something to rejoice over! yesh!
i cant believe i'm actually gonna see key for real! OMG yell!!!!!!!
KEY! :P
ps: condolences to key and family. i'm so sorry to know that you lost your grandparents. i know how you are feeling now. must be terrible. but i do hope you find strength and be strong. think it as a new journey not an end for them. just like what i did when i lost my grandparents. thank them for their love. accompany them for their last journey. work hard for them to see. at the end of your journey, you will see them once again.
be strong my love.
RIP, Key's grandparents.

back to reality.

2010-01-22T01:20:00.000+08:00

Projects are the murderers.

she will never come back

2010-01-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired and sleepy.
sigh, for the past 2 weeks, i have to go to school early in the morning and only be back in the afternoon.
so tired.
each returning bus journey, i will definitely fall asleep.
sigh.

life aren't good.
who say life's good?
can we give some things in life a second chance? so that i can redo everything and avoid those mistakes.
but life dun have the restart button.

i'm already drained and lost.
i'll never come back.
my soul has already lost its core.
until someone finds it back.

moved on

2010-01-20T02:10:00.000+08:00

picked up my broken pieces and have moved on.
knowing its back to the same old shape but the wounds will never be gone.
its there, still there.
while it still beats, it still hurts.

maybe as each day pass, the pain will fade away.
today, 3 quarter have gone.

i wish i could be stronger.
i wish i can be independent.
but i'm not.

2010-01-17T22:40:00.005+08:00

please dun leave me alone.
i dun wanna be alone.
i wan to lean on you.
please dun go.
please.

Reflection

2010-01-17T00:36:00.000+08:00

Look at me,
You may think you see who I really am,
But you'll never know me.

Everyday, it's as if I play a part.

Now I see,
If I wear a mask, I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.

Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight back at me.
When will my reflection show who I am inside?

I am now in a world where I have to hide my heart and what I believe in.

But somehow, I will show the world what's inside my heart and be loved for who I am.
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?

Must I pretend that I'm someone else for all time.
When will my reflection show, who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly
Why must we all conceal what we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide

My heart will still go on.

ease my pain

2010-01-16T02:51:00.001+08:00

someone....save my nose :( i rub my nose until my lips also hurt. (HAHA dun ask me why too lazy to explain :P)
i have no idea why i have a runny nose. why? i even wore my purple hoodie for the whole day leh. like that also tio...? how many tissues have i used? my nose so poor thing! i bet my nose is super red now.

despite my runny nose, i'm still having the fan blowing directly at me. HEH HEH XP
*chants* fall sick fall sick fall sick *chants*

i had alot of thinking the later of today. Its a reflective event and a hurtful event.
i told my mum about it and she told me to learn from it and get over it.
i told her i know, but still, i do feel upset.
that's only one event i told her about.

너 왜그루세요?
친구 안돼요?
가숨이 아파요 :'(

sianz!:(

2010-01-13T22:27:00.003+08:00

feel my sian-ness!

purple sneakers~i'm coming to get you!:D soon XD

2010-01-13T03:16:00.000+08:00

not good at handling goodbyes.
hate to say goodbyes.
goodbyes meant heartaches of missing someone.

even if goodbyes, two will still get to meet at the other end right?

Shinee's impressive harmony :)

2010-01-12T00:54:00.000+08:00

wow...i'm starting to be impressed with how SM is able to match different people talented with great voices together to match a perfect harmony. actually i should have know that SM ability when i was so indulge in TVXQ's harmony XD

today, i'm super impressed with SHINee's harmony. My jaw dropped almost the whole time while listening to their live performance of ROMANTIC. wow, i never knew they could sing live as well as the CD! wow! they earned my respect:) super impressed you know! i was falling asleep while watching thier ROMANTIC live performance...amazing. HAHA

i'm sleepy. but i'm still up cos i insist in exploring SHINee live performance of slow songs.
did you know their IN THE ROOM live performance were great too? :)
i think i have to spend days playing shinee and dong bang's songs on repeat:) ahhh good music are worth to listen more often ;)

starting to appreciate Jonghyun and key's harmony;)
actually, starting to get REAL impressed (big time) with jonghyun's vocal and singing skills ;)
and key! he's almighty, everything about him is great and awesome! :) super biased, too bad he's my fav :P

alright! i'm gonna spam more shinee music :) i'm gonna see SHINEE for real soon! YAY!
feel my happiness <3

2010-01-11T00:55:00.001+08:00

too afraid to say goodbye.

Fill my empty heart

2010-01-10T22:51:00.001+08:00

Hello!:D presenting to you- the nerd EVON! drew by Kavi! :)

Drink treated by JP! 40 cents drink that trained my bladder ;D

Bought this badge from POA ;) there's another badge from POA that is really nice too! gonna get it too :D
OH! i bought a purple hoodie too! nice~!

Finally! got to eat XIAO LONG BAO! or xiao dragon bao, the way sha xiao zi calls it XD
yum yum! must go din tai feng again! :DDD

also i finally got to try Tom N Toms :D its actually a korean version of starbucks XD i think it's a pretty famous coffee cafe in korea :) mm actually it's not too bad :) I love both TOM N TOMS & STARBUCKS <3

Tom N Toms only have 1 outlet in sg so far. Located at FEP basement, replacing subway :)

i'm loving Tom N Toms cafe interior :) next time i'm gonna sit there and dine! heh heh :P

okok other than posting these long overdue pictures i have nothing else to post :(

that's sad :(

i'm waiting for JP to send me my reborn pic :(

why does my sentences sound so weird? gahh english standard dropping, sad sad :(

sad sad sad sad

once again i feel so empty! those projects are so depressing. when can i ever finish them?

dun feel like studying for final exam. just dun feel like.

motivate me.

SIGHHHH

oooo can't to see SHINEE for real XD

KEY! hoho i'm coming yo! XDDD

onew! dubu :)

taemin! what a cute maknae! he's younger than me by 1 year :( i'm a envious nuna ;p

confirmed to highlight my fringe ash purple! also keeping my hair short! :)

bye folks! <3

twist & turn

2010-01-08T03:34:00.000+08:00

Hello people:D
i'm here to blog again! hoho :D

attended open house event today, was suppose to be a student helper but i ended up touring my own school XD
awesome right! :P
i even took picture with reborn! done by cosplay. HOOHOO
that guy is soooo skinny! i thought he is a girl =.= GAHHH can't differentiate guys and girls already. eyes failing.
i wish i was as pretty as those pretty boys! too bad i'm not :(

oh wells...
i'm super bad. i've been naughty.
i'm gonna reflect on my wrong doings.
i'm sorry :(
all for the wrong things i've done, forgive me :(
sorry :(
*not to anyone in particular, to my own conscience and dear lord ;(*

saw some really good quotes in reader digest :) made sense and set me thinking...
shall leave another one here:)

Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.
-Judy Garland-

she's got a point :) goes down to being yourself :)
does fit into my blog ;)
Be yourself people! :) *note to self XD*
hope you guys find it useful yeah?

realize, when he arent happy, i dun feel good too.
realize, even without him, i could feel at ease, just as long as he's happy.
i'm happy, when you are :)
stickman 2 ;)

up and down of emotions today.
the back of the shoulders HURT ;( somewhere swollen or something ;( PAIN LEH. zzzz

update again with pictures! ;D
xiao long bao <3

T & V very lousy =.=

2010-01-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

and do you know why?
because....now my laptop's V came off too =.=
COME ON!
i wasn't that as violent as the time when T came out! zzzz
it's all because of macro!
was flipping through macro's lecture notes and that must have put out my V =.=
(gotta blame macro!)
zzzz macro, thanks so much ah.

still, its kinda funny how this happens. LOL
it only happens to me :(
WHY? lol lol lol
maybe laptop and me are not meant to be. HAHAHA
this year i wish to have a new laptop for my birthday. haha!

okok back to macro project. ZZZZZ

2010~! (=^.^=)V

2010-01-03T21:12:00.000+08:00

Hello! I'm back from GENTING! ;D actually i'm back a few days ago heh heh xP

was lazy to blog so that explain the lag in my blog updates =>

so genting trip was here and gone. Nothing much...but i did fulfill my Starbucks needs XD I had Starbucks for 2 days straight! HOHOHO other than that, this genting trip was kinda boring =/

I love genting's weather! :D so cooling! much much better than Singapore's. if only i can import Genting's cold weather into Singapore :(

so yup, that practically describe my trip, kinda pathetic oh well...

2010 is here yo! since 3 days ago XD
didn't get to celebrate it with happy bang like last year :'( oh well...
any way the first 3 days of 2010 was spent quite all right :D

have to go back to school tomorrow for stats lecture, i'm looking forward to it since it's been quite a while attending lectures :D

Stats project finally is coming to an end! YESH one project down. WOOHOO

now.....macro project is giving me headaches, making me confused as i proceed. GAHH

effws project progress is no where

POM is alright with the front few parts done and now i'm left with my own part, STILL UNDONE.

oh man, i'm gonna force myself to be real hardworking to complete them asap!

heh then i can take a small break then back to studying :D preparation for final exam!

zzzzz why must final exam be right after chinese new year!!! ROAR

i wanna spend my chinese new year nicely and get alot of hongbaos leh. zzzz who set the final exam date one!

ok i think i've blogged quite an amount HAHA

let's kill macro project with a BIG BIG ACE.

KILL MACRO KILL MACRO!!
=P

you'll see the light

2009-12-27T00:32:00.003+08:00

will be off to genting in about 2 days time.
a break and a runaway.
i'm sinking myself into misery and saddness.
that's not really good and i dun like it.

i wish i could control what's going through my mind.
sometimes, it's hard to be me.
and sometimes, i really dun get myself.

i guess a break before new year is a good end for 2009.
end of year resolution: what's done it's history. Keep moving forward.

Spend the last bit of 2009 well yeah? :)

Phone call with MinHo

2009-12-26T01:18:00.002+08:00

there you go! my conversation with minho. kinda short (i'm shocked and lost for words to talk to him. also, i cant hear him properly zzz) since he can't exactly pronounce my name...people ask who's that ><><

Lee Min Ho's SG fan meeting

2009-12-26T00:56:00.005+08:00

I know this is kinda late XD
sharing videos of me up on stage with Min Ho =D
see the last part of the second video where my very weird expression comes out. HAHA
in case you dunno which one is me, i'm the third one counting from Minho's right. (spot my long colorful handphone strap XD)

Happy Sixth Anniversary TVXQ!

2009-12-26T00:27:00.001+08:00

Video: TVXQ, I'll be Your Umbrella (Always Keep the Faith)

Can't believe its the 6th year already!
(its my 3rd year as a cassiopeia =D)
my awesome princes: TVXQ!

this video reminds me so much memories.
brings me joy and happiness but mostly, sadness.
made me cried and cried and cried and cried so bitterly.
you'll understand if you are a cassiopeia.

any way, i really hope TVXQ will come back real soon.

christmas with a taste of champagne

2009-12-25T22:48:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
HOHOHO!
i hope uncle santa (sort of) visited you last night and gave you the presents!:D

although christmas eve was spent quite blandly, christmas was spent quite blissfully!
i like family gathering during this kind of festive season:D it just up up up the joyous mood:D

Christmas with a taste of champagne, i like this title:D
i came up with it! gonna copyright it HAHAHA
kinda sound like Cloudy with a chance of meatballs right?
~~SHUT UP~~

this Christmas had a taste of champagne which i think its my first time?
wow, its bitter like...WAHHH
but i still manage to drink quite an amount. whoo~
i didn't get drunk! IMPRESSED :D

like last year, ate turkey! also tried gingerbread! (wasn't as nice as how i thought it will be =/)
i hope everyone enjoyed your christmas! :D

its boxing day tmr which means i have to complete 2 projects. Go evon! WHOOTS

champagne makes me sleepy and my head giddy.
ZZZZ

Uncle santa! :D

2009-12-25T00:05:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas! :D
Jingle bell jingle bell JINGLE ALL THE WAY! HOHOHO!

unlike last year's, i stayed at home the whole day for christmas eve =/
well, i could have gone out, on the streets of orchard but..
i just didn't have the mood and feeling to go out...so...

gastric problems again:(

can't believe that i'm actually thinking about you.
zzzz
evon wong! you noe he's not a good guy and he's not true!
dun you dare fall for him! ZZZZ

tomorrow, will be out at ah yi's house:D
Le ya! Min le! TURKEY :DDD
since last year, we have been celebrating christmas by gathering at ah yi's house and have christmas dinner together. I think its because of uncle robin.
heh TURKEY! does taste like chicken XD

OH! read from Shinee's soompi forum that they might be coming to SG next year!
shouts OH YEAH!
getting lucky, seriously!:D
now, i just have to wait for my really realistic wish to come true=)
i hope it does:( because i have been waiting for quite long=/

i can't remember what else to blog so...
BYE FOLKS:D
merry christmas!=)

Junsu, Key, Alexander, Kevin : MERRY CHRISTMAS!
TVXQ, SHINee, Ukiss : MERRY CHRISTMAS!
HAPPY BANG: MERRY CHRISTMAS!
JKKGAO: MERRY CHRISTMAS!
to him : MERRY CHRISTMAS!

love you all lots and lots!=)

christmas is always the same

2009-12-23T00:52:00.002+08:00

hey!:D
its officially JANEL's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!:D
my wishing for you came late but that doesn't mean i forgot! I remembered!:)
i doubt she will see this though :p
and yes girl, i know i owe you a present. i WILL get one for you, no worries!:D

You know i use to embarrass myself everyday during secondary school days?
now, it's kinda extended to my poly school life :(
during my statistical theory test time, i got real hungry and so my stomach growled *>_<*
it's just stomach nature to growl when its hungry right? BUT why does it have to growl so loud?
so embarrassing! AHHHHH
then during a tutorial lesson, i fell of my chair =.=
embarrassing nah!
zzzzz go away go away stop cursing me with embarrassing moments!
:(

on a lighter note...I GOT TO SEE LEE MIN HO!
real real close!
i hugged him too:D
shaked his hand and even talked to him on the phone for a while!
WOOHOO! ^_^V
I'm gonna be lucky! XD
its a good thing i filled up the paper and put it inside the box:D
thank you MINHO for picking my paper! XD
one thing freaky was, my instincts actually worked :O
before hand i was telling my sis that i have a feeling that i will be chosen for the interacting part with MINHO.
HOW LUCKY CAN I BE!!! :D
i know i told this to many people already but i just can't believe how lucky it is!
when the mc read out : EVON WONG i was shocked to the max and i went: WHAT?!
AHHHH that's my name!
and she said minho is gonna call the fans. OMG
he really called! and i seriously cant hear him on the phone and i guess we probably din converse much:( BOOHOO!
but one thing is, he cant pronounce my name. LOL i still remember telling him its evon XD
i saw myself in one of the fancam! cool XD
okok that's all i wanna say about it.
enough to last for a lifetime=)

now i believe.
yeah, it won't be easy for me to find love :(
i'm so not lovable. HAIZ

shocking stuffs. unbelievable.
sigh.
why like that?

i need a runaway.
if only the genting trip was pushed forward.
life sucks to be like this.

christmas, although some parts is different this year but overall, is still the same.

2009-12-20T16:23:00.001+08:00

IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU?.....NO

They said…
It’s all up to you to choose…
Choose what’s best for you …
Ignore what’s bad for you
Choose what’s right for you…
Ignore what’s wrong for you…
Choose what do you want to believe…
Ignore things that make you lose faith…
Choose the thing that will make you happy…
Ignore things that make you sad…
Choose the thing that will make you smile…
Ignore things that will make you cry…
It’s all up to you…
Cause it’s all about you…

However,
Why it’s hard to make a choice…?
Isn’t it easy just to think about your own self…?
Isn’t it easy only doing what’s right for you…?
Isn’t it easy only cared what benefits you…?
Isn’t it easy to ignore others…?
I don’t think so…
Cause life it’s not all about us…
Life is not about one single person…
Others counting on you…
Others depend on you…
Others watching you …
They are smiling because of you…
They could cry because of you…
They would laugh together with you…

So,
Deep think is a must…
Deep tolerance to adjust…
Before the choices are made….
Before the decisions you take…
Cause, it will affect not only to you but, others too….

broken harmony

2009-12-20T03:10:00.002+08:00

aftermath of a storm.

how do you mend a broken harmony of 5?

how do you ease the pain of a sorrowful heart?

how do you bring back a lost bond?

how do you build back a crumbled trust?

how do you destroy a wrongly built image?

how do you piece back my broken heart?

how do you cure those wounds?

how do you hide those scars?

how do you ensure those smiles before will never be gone?

how do you make sure those smiles will be the same?

how how how?